one exception pls..n pls make it work..thank you

i took a day off yesterday to settle a lot o things. my tax and uitm saman being one o them. twas a full day. from KL to shah alam den back to damansara but im sooo glad i got everything settled!! well..not axactly everything! there is one thing i had to do dat i couldnt till i bwk all the documents needed..mane la i tau kene bwk offer letter!! xpe can do nnti! anyway! despite having about a million things to do. i still managed to go to the metrojaya sale in shah alam which is giler best nk mati!!!! i went crazyyy!!! its one o d best sales ive been to since london's boxing day which is mmg mcm giler punye best!! i got parfumes n make up!! aaaa!! nk pg lagi!!! ok janna pls behave!! ok pastu we went to ou to catch a movie sbab dah 3 ribu kot tahun xtgk movie!! we watched he's just not that into u which i really liked! i think its a movie all girls have to watch n think about the values and meaning behind it all. i mean ive been there myself! getting all jumpy around a guy i like, watching the phone willing it to ring *mcm la phone tu ada telepathy kn*, biler dpt text msg from him it just makes ur day, n of course, bwk phone masuk toilet mase mandi! i dont know bout u guys bt ive done all those! n im not proud o it! but its something every girl will go thru at least once in her life! the waiting and the wanting dat is painful and sweet at the same time! n betrayal..who hasnt felt it? it hurts..right down to ur very core..it does..bt it makes u stronger...and smarter..and the yearning for somthing that seems so impossibly far...but wen u finally get it..it all seems so worth it! love..wat is life without it? it colours and blurs your world at the same time..its makes you see ever so clearly while it blinds..

the EXCEPTION is out there, somewhere. the EXCEPTION, the one person you'd sacrifice so much of yourself just to make that person happy. and more importantly, you should be someone's EXCEPTION too. that he'd do what he says, he'd go out of his way to please you, and he'll look you in the eye.
*curik from dayahsays.blogspot.com

Exception sounds pretty darn good to me... doesnt it?

stormy nights..

on a totally different note..there was a huge storm last nite..takott... the winds were blowing so hard they made scary noises..dh la pukul 3 pg..nk gerak pon takot!! dh la pg rumah org pass away pas2 balik xmandi agn..hehehe :).. lg la buat takott!! so wat do i do wen i wake up scared in the middle o d nite??? i call affiq my adek!! affiq!! masuk bilik kak na skrg plsss!!! poor affiq had to make sure i was ok before sleepily trudging back into his room to get his blanket n pillow to tman kak na sleep :) luff u! mwahh!!

dis is my adek kesayangan!!



Eh eh!! bkn lah!! salah!!

haaa! this is affiq! the one on the left!! my hero!! putih kn??? heheh!! mwahh!!

of death an dying..

Is it just me or does it seem like theres a whole lotta deaths happening lately? in the last six months, 6 people i know have passed..the first being tok and the last one was my indian neighbour who passed last week..he complained of chest pains on saturday morning after breakfast..his wife took him home and later brought him to the hospital whr they did an EKG test that showed everything to be normal..he sed his chest still hurt so his wife went to speak to a nurse while another attended to him.. he went into cardic arrest and shortly after, took his final breath..just like that..

we paid our condolence to his widow n their kids last nite and my heart just broke at the sight o these innocent children who will grow up without their father.. their youngest son is just 8 while the eldest boy is barely of high school age.. i remember when they use to come over all the time to play with my adek2.. comels sgt! sihat2 blaka.. next to the photo of the deceased was a scrap book made by the eldest son for his dad's 50th birthday last year. in it were photos of his dad from the time he was a baby, thru his childhood, adolscent life, college, his wedding, and his entire adult life from the time he had his kids and getting promoted and going on holidays. it was like his entire life was compiled into this little black book filled with words of love by his children. his wife told me that he was so proud when he got it on his birthday. he brought it to the office and showed it to anyone and everyone. on the last page was a picture of the entire family with the words, we love u papa! printed in large bold letters signifying their love for this man they call father. now the book sits cold in the swirl of smoke and the scent of flowers from the altar. only to be touched by unfamiliar hands and the occasional tear of sadness and regret..

makes you think of how fragile life is doesnt it?

Hari Orientasi

today i had to attend an orientation for new hire's at IBM plaza BU. i was to report there in the morning so i was saved the trouble o driving to d end o d world, otherwise known as cyberjaya, but only for 2day mind u. dah xpayah drive jauh, nk drive dekat pon trus malas! got my adek to drop me off since he's home for a week on study leave (btw..study la sgt!!!). i was sceptical o going in the beginnning. xde fren since i had 2 go alone. this is d 3rd session they're conducting. i had to miss d earlier ones sbb ..ntah..sbab nape ntah...anyway! i went today! its only for a day n i got thr early. i was d 1st to arrive. smpai2 trus on thinkpad (IBM laptop name dier thinkpad ok) sbab dah rindu kwn2 cyber..after a brief introduction by our instructor, we were asked to form a line according to our birthdate's from January to December..without speaking..or writing anything down..hmm...ok i cheated! trus selit2 ckp bday i biler! we got in line pretty accurately save for d few who salah sket2 je..impressive jgak! den we had to answer a bunch o Q's with our team mates which was rather mundane..pas2 last2 d instructor asked each o us to grab a paper n pencil n using ur other tangan (im righthanded so i had to use my left) kene draw a pic o ur dream job at IBM. klaka kottt!! ader yg lukis bumi sbab nk travel..ader lukis shape ape ntah (suppose to b rectagular kot) w dollar signs in dem..ok duit kot..hahaha! i drew a laptop sbab IBM kn (duh!) n me..big head me w stick body (bkn sbab kurus tp sbab xtau draw body) ader passport, LV handbag n chanel shoes!!hahahaha! konon nyer dh pangkat besar n kaya pastu passport sbab nk travel!!!kih kih kih! nk put d gamba but malu...mayb nx time? ok peeps..im beat...abrupt ending...gudnite..much love to all! mwah!

monday blues

Just another manic monday..wish it was sunday coz thats my fun day.. GLRT tgh down xle masuk so we're all chatting (chatting tau bkn sembang literally) sesame sendiri...hmm...best nyer klu bole balik sleep w cakbina..who peed on my bed dis morning btw..dah la kench atas katil org..pastu ketawe2 buat muka cheeky like saying 'padan muka mama na!' nasib baik comel! impossible to angry seminit pon! how do u get angry wen she smiles at u like dis?

weekend wishes

weekend is almost here! i used to love weekends back wen it gave me the chance to relax n unwind. nowadays my weekends consist largely of weddings, cleaning, babysitting (ok ini xcomplain), n basicaly running arnd getting errands done. oh how i wish i could have an entire day just for me.

here is a list of things i would so wanna do if i could get a day for lil ole me

1. sleep in n wake up wen i feel like waking up dan bkn dikejut oleh semua dibawah
- papa menjerit
- mama menjerit
- sheeba menjerit nk mkn mcm seumur hidup xpernah mkn ever!!
- affiq dgn innocent nyer bertanye ' kak na bole anta affiq main bola??'. (adik ku its 7am on a weekend. pls. naik cab or sumtin. better yet. jln. warmup ok.
- cakbina drooling over my face (ok ini xmind jgak, cept d drooling part)
- alarm go off ditgh mlm atau pagi-pagi buta buat org terkejut giler smpai nk lompat klua kulit

2. Get a wonderful relaxing facial that does not flatten my hair in the process (ok mcm xpossible je)

3. Go for a hair cut lg that leaves my hair similar to that of katie holmes (post tom cruise ok pls)

4. Go watch a movie wen im not tired or in a hurry

5. Shop for a new pair o shoes

6. And a bag please

7. Try out a new cuisine (nothing raw pls..so not in d mood for anything raw cept oysters..sedap nyer!!)

8. Take a drive to sumwhr nice like cameron highland

9. Lie languidly in bed and watch the sun bounce off the walls

10. And lastly a hug... a huge bear hug that tells me everything is right and everything will b ok..

i wish for all of the above pls pls pls *shuts eye tightly*

ok peeps. i wish u a wonderful weekend ahead! b gud ok! hugs n kissies!!

A little birdie told me...

papa n i rescued a baby bird today!! well i hope we rescued it...xtau la survive ke x...pls survive baby bird..wen i smpai rumah td, my dad was picking flowers in the garden 4 me mom, he does it every evening, sweet kn??? anyway! as we were talking, he spotted a lil baby bird perching precariously on a tiny branch looking scared and unwell. nearby we saw a bigger bird (mak dier kot) swooping and screeching (at us kot?). i tink baby bird ni sakit sian dier. it didnt even fly away wen i focused my huge cam lense at it. either dier rabun, xkuasa nk lyn atau giler glam. anyway. we took pics n left it be. pastu! at abt 10pm, my dad went out to fetch my adek from tuition then he called me down. i igt kene wash dishes. rupe nye! he was looking for the bird to make sure it was safe, bt couldnt spot it, as he was walking in he saw sumthing in between the gigi's on top of our gate. rupenye the baby bird tried to fly and sumhow ended up thr. nasib jatuh kt situ, klu jatuh tpt park kete??kn jd mark atas jln! anyway! papa picked it up n put it back on the tiny branch..comel sgt! ok dh ngantuk! gnite peeps! gnite baby bird! b safe ok!

baby's day out :(

i miss cakbina today!! she went back to her other grandma's place... :( sape nk kacau i at 4 in d morning mintak dukung?? sape nk drool all over my pillow?? sape nk ketawe jerit2 comel sgt?? sape nk berebut bantal n katil ngn mama na?? sape nk make mama na laugh so hard wen she terbalik totoy (tortoise ok..)?? sape nk bersembang xbenti mcm org paham dier ckp ape?? sape??? oh i miss her so much...

my fav baby in the world!!

You are My Sunshine!

Yesterday was an ok day. Byk keje but our (mine n La’s) username’s ader prob which causes the system to hang after sumtime. We ended up sitting w other colleague’s n konon buat keje sesame. Heehehe. Is it just me or does everything feels slower as ur getting closer to the weekend? Anyway we had a security briefing and learned dis and dat. We had a celebration for carol as she was leaving for the US at midnite lastnite. We had cake! White choc macdamias which urs truly picked :) and walnut brownies. Yumm! Dis is d first Saturday off im having since I started work a month back. No weddings, no outings, no lunches, no nothing!! I wanna stay in my jammies n have chickn wings in bed!! N choc ice cream while watching past episodes of desperate hsewives! Dis is a pic o moi n cakbina in my room in d morning b4 I left 4 work. comel kn kasut dier??nk gigit!!



and this is one of her wen i got back from work



have a great weekend peeps!! b gud n spread d love! mwah!

just a dream

life really is unpredictable isnt it? for 5 years i thought n expected to be working in media, be it sitting at my desk churning out stories for the evening news or sitting in front of the camera greeting folks with a huge smile plastered on my face for all to see. i always wanted to become a journalist and dreamed of becoming a newsreader since i was a child. i love to write. ok love is an understatement. i do i really do. but after a while i realised writing as a journalist is no fun. your vocabs get stunted from lack of use as news writing calls for short simple straight to the point words that prevents us from dipping into our wonderful vocab jar. lama2 jd rusty sbab xgune. im thankful with my new job, even more so after seeing so many ppl getting laid off and retrenched. ive yet to find passion for it tho. but it'll come. im sure of it. ive been doing sum thinking about continuing my masters in writing. mcm best kn? tp xtau la bile. im taking a day at a time. someone sed i should learn to slow down n not rush. mayb i should. mayb i will.

ok on a totally different note. i tink i like my new work space. save for the million or so ppl who pass by it to get 2 d printer room every second! byr toll ok!! but i like it. its nice. n its mine :) have a wonderful evening peeps.

happy birthday laki mat salleh mariane!!!

2day is our danish bosses birthday. he's a really nice fellow w a nice face n an irresistable smile. mariane has officially declared him her husband, coming into class in the morning swooning sorg2 mcm minah senget! anyway! she found out today was his bday n while we were walking to d pantry she saw him in his office. dia punye lah gedik w xcitement! we dared her to go wish him happy bday n dier dgn slambe bapaknye walked up to him dgn hair flips nyer n went..lauge...happy bday!!!kitorg yg kt luar ni yg lari berterabur malu ok! so comel!! den we sang happy bday for him..satu class ok bkn kitorg je...n had cake!! ni pics kitorg w d cake..or rather, wat was left of it..forever k nk dpt gamba yg ader kepala dan ader mariane dan ader cake..enjoy!

Lights Out!

Yesterday I went to work and after passing the damansara toll remembered I left my purse at home! If I were to patah balik to get it, id have to go thru KJ which, at dat time would b like going into a shoe sale whr 5 people are clamouring for the same bloody shoe in the same bloody size. Not a good situation to be in trust me. So I decided to go straight to d office after talking to my dad who agreed it was best I avoid the hassle o going thru the horrendous jam. Pas2! Dah almost smpai kak in called asking me whr I left my purse. Cari punye cari rupenye wen I went out d nite before, I stuffed it back into the wrong handbag. Pastu! Rupenye papa sgt sweet…he wanted to come n send me my purse..kt cyber k!! which is so far its like another country! We had a test dat day. Mase tgh test my parents arrived w cakbina who was initially sleeping pas2 bgn . Sempat pulak tuh nk amek gamba. So thanx to my wonderful papa, I xsekse hidup takut kene tahan polis n kene saman or worse tangkap terus sabab xde ic. Do dey do dat? I dowan to find out kot. Oh n during earth hour I went out w affiq to uptown. At 830 sharp I looked out d window n saw most..well practically all the shops were still pretty well lit save for the 3 boutiques dat I wanted to go to. Dengki tau. I came home n my dad came out w a torchlite n comel sgt, had dinner by ikea scented candles. Im ashamed to admit dat I did not shut myself in total darkness, rather, I turned on a small little tiny (ok not so tiny…or small) lite sbab I takottt!!! Ok…tp x on aircond (ok on pkul 9.10pm..) I totally take all this 4 granted sgt kn? Tak sampai 1 jam n im going out o my mind! Oh well…nnti I practice lg..dis is cakbina n I infront o IBM. She just got up from her morning nap hence d grumpy face.

p/s: Please feel better earth..we had an hour just for u!

baby luff!

Sabrina has figured out the use of her legs and now wants to do nothing but stand. thing is, she cant really stand without someone holding her up. agak penat la biler kene pegang dier all d time! but she's oh so cute!!! jerit jerit buat cute in hopes that someone might cair n pick her up. well...it works everytime! irresistable ok! mama na loves u cakbina!!

snowflakes in the morning rush

this pic was from d day before yesterday wen it was pouring in the morning on d way to work. just after the klia exit from shah alam (on d flyover) d road was covered w a foam like substance giving it a light snow-covered look. terus takut nk speed walaupon lambat...ntah2 lori sabun terbalik x?

wish list

-i wish i was taller so i wouldnt have to drag a stool to get the shoe box way up there

-i wish i could sing

-i wish i had the courage to try acting in theater

-i wish the world to be a better place

-i wish people were genuinely nice

-i wish my new shoes werent scuffed

-i wish sabrina wud stay a baby forever

-i wish i had the will power to go to the gym everyday, or at least every other day

-i wish i could afford to buy shoes everyday!

-i wish things were different

-i wish to be free of guilt

-i wish i cud run in the rain without worry of my hair or my clothes

-i wish i could do what i love

-i wish i wasnt afraid

-i wish i could be free

-i wish i could be me

twinkle twinkle little star

sometimes in life you have to make choices that will make or break your future. when that time comes, you will have to make life altering decisions and it wont be easy, far from it. people will tell you to listen to your head not your heart. but as the saying goes, easier said then done. emotions are tricky things. i never expected to have to make such a decision so early in life. alas, it's my fate and i duly accept it. gotta work tomorrow. hittin d sack early to avoid bgn lambat or worse, xbgn! gnite peeps. may d world be less sakit after eath hour sabtu ni. amin.

raindrops falling on my window..

harini pkai black dress w black panty hose thingy. mule2 pkai leggings xde feet..so casual...pastu pkai tights yg cover half o my feet...casual lg la..settled on panty hose dat covered sumer dr waist saaaaampai toes..baru ok...weird how a tiny bit o cloth can alter our entire ensemble kn?

satu pagi yg mengantuk...

i went to 3 weddings during the weekend..not as guests mind u..i ran around all three as minah bunga telur, registration girl, translator (bride mat salleh), mc and baby sitter. tp xde gamba 1 pon..xsmpat amek la.. penat gils! i dreader getting up this morning..nk ponteng sgt2! tp...baru start..kene la tunjuk smangat sket kn..carol is teaching us abt something or other up thr n my tummy is rumbling, counting the minutes to lunch. sabrina had her 1st solid food this morning! her mama was upstairs sleeping so grandmama dier slipped her some banana..goreng pisang ok! but none o d oil or crusts la..kot..pas2 dier terus hyper ketawe jerit2 xberenti! comel! i just came to know o this new singer. i dont know if uve heard o him. he's indonesian, his name is afghan..as in afghanistan..haha! xde lah. but his voice is beautiful! d voice o an angel i always say. pls pls check him out. ngantuk lah..*sniff sniff* seseme jgak...sian dier..ok later peeps..i need to identify stuff online i wanna abeskn my gaji on!

job hop

i got a new job! as of d 10th of march i began my new career in the HR dept of IBM at cyberjaya. jauh giler or wat?? i commute each day in my trustee cik kum (name manje myvi yg berupa bentuk spt kumbang) and dirve tersengguk-sengguk...so sleepy tau..ill begin working officially on the 1st of april. as of now, im in training. we are trained by 3 mat salleh ladies who are super nice n comel. carol kirchberg n julie harder from the US and nicole van heygen from belgium. d things we learn are so very diff from wat im used to doing (ie anything masscomm la kn). i admit its rather hard keeping up n at times i find myself staring blankly at the instructors, dlm kepala imagine nicholas cage in the final scene of con air whr he was reunited with his wife n daughter..ade kene mengene x???but im glad to have gotten dis job. so hard to come by these days kn. anyhoos! i got a new laptop! its bim issued n i guess wud b mine till i leave the company den i hv 2 return it. but in d meantime..its mine!!tp x xcited sgt...its not pretty or anything..plain black je..tp kecik! n expensive k...been off blogging for so long sbab busy sgt! but now dat ive got my company issued laptop i tink ill b updating my blog more often kot..ill try too..watch this space! mwah

Somewhere over the watchamacallit

I was stuck in rush hour traffic yesterday..a bad one..n guess who stopped by to say hello?