Tuesday rants

I will be getting my wedding dress in a couple of days and i so nervous! I hope and wish it turns out beautiful. Coz really mama and the designer did the entire frontal part. I only saw the back part of the dress on the ipad and wanted no other. I trust mama's taste completely but i just cant imagine what it looks like on the front...  and mama wasnt very happy with the back coz she was afraid it might look a bit too revealing. Sowe compromised with me giving her the frontal part to design, and opting for a thicker, less sheer material for the back part.

And dont even get me started on the cards!! We picked this particular shop coz :- A. They had airconditioning. It was mighty hot there and we basically ran from one aircond shop to another, ignoring the open aired ones. And B. This shop had three branches in the centre alone! so of course they had to be good right!?? Well I got a bit upset when i tried calling them from here to reconfirm that they got the changes i made and also to increase our order. My calls were rejected and my texts were left unanswered, as were my emails. I finally got thru when i called the landline and up till today, I still have not gotten the confirmation draft email she promised. So guys, if you go to indon to get your cards done. Avoid this shop called DutaGraphia. DO NOT be lured by the cool billowing aircond!!

Im still on the look out for wedding shoes.. I have already found one which i love! but im still waiting for some details to have it shipped so in the meantime, im shoeless still!!

Ive still got to tie up some loose ends here and there but i guess the major parts are more or less done. Butterflies in my tummy are growing by the day!!

Dear god, please make everything smooth and everybody happy and smiley on my wedding day. Id really appreciate it if you would make my skin glow too. Also, I would really love it if you would make my bank account grow again. Coz at the moment, its looking a little lean.. thats all for now. Thank you very much. 

12 Random facts about me

1. I hate long drives. I have a crazy phobia of accidents. I especially hate long drives at night. Riding on a bus on a long haul trip is as good as suicide.

2. I love anything sweet. but i cannot have sweet stuff for bfast- ie pancakes, cereal. I can have them if i have some other savoury items on the side.

3. Breakfast is my most favourite meal of the day. Dinner is a close second.

4. I cannot stand the cold. I go to the movies with blankets/shawl and a pair of ugly oversized comfy airline socks. Im just as embarrasing at the office.

5. I hid a couple of delicious caramel macarons in the fridge on saturday coz i was afraid my brothers would eat them. I am reminded of them everyday at work but always forget when i get home. Please dont forget today ok?

6. I can eat a huge bowl of cherries in a matter of minutes. Its like magic.

7. I have an obsession with nuts. Walnuts and pecans are absolute favs.

8. I am super nervous that my wedding dress and invites dont turn out the way i pictured them. I hope i dont throw a bitchfest...

9. My niece tells me she wants to marry me.. and my fiance.. she thinks once you have taken ur morning shower u can marry. She goes- mama na! na dah mandi!! jom kawen??

10. I hate it when make up artists put on mascara for me. I find it to be one of the most uncomfortable thing in the world. next to lip gloss. Which i also dislike.

11. I read the news with my legs folded up under me. and i normally wear sleep pants to go read so i can crash as soon i reach home n remove my mke up. nothing glamorous about that.

12. I am NOT as huge as i look on TV. All this hi def plasma lcd stuff is making me look all podgy n fat. Liars is what they are i tell u.

Shhhhhh.... lets make this our little secret okay

i know i told my dad there wouldnt be anymore wedding talk.. but i really wonder who has been telling him about my blog updates coz none of my siblings read my blog.. n he couldnt have read it himself.. i mean lets be realistic.. he bought a tablet computer and didnt know how to turn it on.. so whoevers been feeding him stories shut ur trap n go play in traffic ok? thank u.

it has been such a super duper packed awesomely tiring one week for us. JJ took a one week leave and came back to settle everything. our jakarta trip was a mix of sugar spice and dirty mucky icky black water (will get to that later). we managed to get the stuff we want and i cannot wait to see all end products.

i am so glad jj n i didnt argue once throughout the trip, or the entire week for that matter. we saw eye to eye on most things and those that we didnt, we compromised on. and im so thankful for that.

we also did out pre wedding photo and video shoot at kalumpang. it was fun to say the least. but also pretty draining. considering we had just returned from jkt on tuesday after midnight and spent the entire wednesday running errands and buying props for the shoot and marinaded the chicken n made spag bol n sandwiches for the shoot till late night. and left for the shoot at 7am the following day. i promise if my body cud speak, it'd have spanked and scolded me silly.

but im so happy that the photos turned out beautiful. we definitely bonded this week. after being apart for so long it felt nice to have him around all the time. well for a week at least...

enjoy the photos!

post lunch

Papa im-ed me yesterday, yes he instant msged me. my dad who knows as much about computers as i do about math. He's hooked on ym. Everynow and then i get text and emails that goes- u whr? wan chat now. It takes him a while to reply tho, i imagine him tip tapping the keypad, looking for alphabets and laughing at himself when he realises it was under his nose all the while.

he told me to stop blogging abt the wedding. bummer. i kindda wanted to keep it as a journal for me to read back later on... bt papa's kno best. so no more wedding drama's!

im feeling dpressed of late.. with jj not around... n having to miss the valiram luxury shoe sale this weekend.. sigh... not that i trust myself enough to go JUST for a looksee.. for all you other lucky people out there.. please go and show me pictures so i can drool ok

Spooky nites...

For the past 2 years i have been waking up in the middle of the night. This happens everynight no matter where i am, be it at home, a hotel or my grandma's place back in my hometown. And i always always always wake up at 2.58, 2.59 or 3am. i googled this and got some rather disturbing answers. While some sites mentioned something about sleep patterns and internal clocks, a lot of them say that 3am is the time when paranormal activity is at its peak. Reading about the witching hour and the hour of the walking dead isnt really making me feel all that better. But i do get creeped out when i wake up, even if the tv is on, which is most nites (fine everynite). I get the feeling that im being watched.

Last night i had a nightmare, that i was sleeping and woke up at 2.59am and felt like there was a presence in my bedroom. I ran out and saw my dad standing outside my door. he looked pale and told me that he saw a pontianak (banshee) flying into my room. At that exact moment i woke up, and it was 2.59am- creepy much!??!?

On a totally unrelated note, the wedding frenzy is starting to get to me. Were in d midst of looking for a ring for him and omg stress pls. Were looking for a broad ring coz he has giant fingers, in a material that abides by islamic laws, and my moms laws, and is within my budget. u kno how hard that is??? It doesnt help that he's so far away, but i guess we have to make do. 4 months one week and one day to go. Lets pray we all come thru in one piece. Frazzled and fried im sure... but intact :)

Baby baby mama

Last friday, about 20 ibm-ers made our way to a home for troubled teen girls in cheras, an area i have little familiarity of. we have had looooooooong meetings prior to coming here to prep ourselves for what we would encounter. despite those extended 3 hour long meetings, i was rendered speechless when faced with the girls.

Taman Seri Puteri Cheras is a place that houses girls from the ages of 12-18. These 'misled' girls live a protected life here. they are not allowed to go out, or leave without parental consent or until they reach a certain age. Most of them are also pregnant. I am not accustomed to seeing kids as young as 13 years old hobbling around with huge tummy's. When i was 13, i was still playing hopscotch and making faces when asked to take out the garbage.

We were ushered into a meeting room upon arrival and were told to set up while they rounded the girls. After 15 minutes, the girls walked in, all 35 of them, while we were setting up our power point slides and que cards and such. All of us either stared at the floor or at each other, each one trying not to look, much less stare at these girls who are obviously very very young, but pregnant nonetheless.

We were very careful in our speech, afraid of saying something that might offend the girls, but they proved to be rather, outspoken. After the initial stage of getting to know one another, they and us were finally at ease and were able to have private conversations. Over morning tea, i found out that 17 year old Salwa are carrying a pair of boy girls twins and that her mother told her not to come home after she delivers for fear of her safety as her father is an abusive man. And 15 year old Wai Leng is due in three days time.

The girls we dressed differently according to the state they were in. Pregnant girls wore a blue robe with white tudung, while non-pregnant girls wore flower print baju kurung. We later found out that the non-pregnant girls have either just given birth, or are under remand by the police.

While we were there, we saw a young girl being taken away by her parents. Her feet were clad in thick socks and she was dressed in layers to keep herself warm- a sign she was in confinement. We later found out that she had given birth 3 days earlier and she had given her baby up for adoption. A couple had come to take her baby home, and she would be going back to her parents. She is 13 years old. When she was 12, she was raped. Her parents sent her to Seri Puteri when she got pregnant. She cried as she left and i wondered if it was from sadness of having to see your child leave with someone else, never to be seen again, or bitterness from the trauma she has been through. It was gut wrenching.

We were told not to ask these girls any personal questions that might offend them, but in the end, it was them who were openly telling us their life stories. While some were girls who mixed with the wrong crowd and got into trouble, there were some who were raped by people they knew, relatives, friends, boyfriends.

One thing that stuck in my mind was when we played an adventure game. You have to choose the decision you want to make based on the choices given according to the situation portrayed. It went something like this-

Shiela is 17. She comes from a poor family. Her father is in jail. She has never visited him as she is ashamed of him. Her mother has to work hard to support her and her siblings. One day, an old women comes up to her and hands her a magic watch. She told shiela that this watch can take her anywhere she wants to in a matter of seconds when she says out loud where she wants to go while wearing it. Shiela wears the watch and says-

A- Take me to a nightclub

B- Take me to my fathers jail cell

C- Take me to Phuket, Thailand

We were all caught off guard when ALL the girls shouted A! like it was the most natural thing in the world. someone gives u a magic watch?? lets go to the nightclub!! this coming from teens who are supposed to be crying over a huge zit or like me- not being allowed to go on school trips.

I really hope and pray these girls find their way in the world. I truly wish for them to learn from this mistake and be better people. It was a real eye opener for all of us. i pray these girls will make it out in the real world free from judgements and pain.

Prince Charming

growing up. most girls i know had an extensive list of 'criteria's' they wanted in a man they were to marry. which girl has not had numerous discussions with their girlfriends about how they want their guy to be

1. Rich- mandatory criteria this one

2. Handsome- another major point here

3. Must be a prince and/or an actor and/or an heir to a major company, hotel, business or all that i have mentioned.

4. Romantic

5. MUST be a gentleman

6. Generous and caring- by generous i mean buying me gifts every other day, or everyday im not picky

Thats all i can pull so far off the top of my head. But the problem with setting criteria's are that we set the bar so high up, most of us will never meet anybody who meets all that. Sure we'll meet that guy who is as romantic as Heidi Klum's husband Seal and good looking to boot but of course he's a casanova so be prepared to share him with a slew of girls.

The gentleman who opens doors for us and pulls out our chairs are unfortunately shorter then us. And princes, heirs and actors never even look our way.

As for the shower of gifts. I guess practicality applies. Unless ur marrying the list of people with titles above, i doubt you'd be showered with gifts on a daily basis eyh? JJ called me from adelaide 2 weeks back all excited! he was telling me that he got me sumtin. my ears perked up like a kangaroo imagining handbags or well... a pot. thr's this pot which i was eyeing but even at the outlet store its like 1500 MYR. his voice was all cute and excited and he went-

"i bought u... plastic bags!!!"

"you can marinade chicken in it and bake it IN THE BAG!! like throw it in the oven along with the bag!!

"how awesome is that!!"

*crickets chirping*

i laughed my a** off!! here i was imagining designer handbags and expensive le crueset pots and he was so excited in an almost childish way about this plastic bag it was soooo cute!!!

he's arriving tonight for a short break and i cannot wait to see him!! i cant pick him up at the airport unfortunately coz im reading tonite. so i'll see him tomorrow and i will def bake him that chicken in the bag.

he is most def not the romantic kind either but he surprises me sumtimes. and i prefer this arrangement to the romantic all the time kind of guy who can be rather suffocating at times if u ask me. with him, since its so scarce, it becomes really meaningful.

i guess the man im marrying does not meet my childhood list of criteria but i believe in this phrase i once heard.

when two people are crazy in love, they dont sweat the small stuff

baby over the rainbow

I am in love with this little girl!!!

Food overload...

2 weekends back, JJ and i went to visit his grandma at the hospital. she had fallen and broke her shoulder in 3 places. such a pity. u kno how long it takes bones to heal... esp so in older people... so since we were in the kajang area, i wanted to go to pla dib for lunch. i had read about it on blogs raving about the menu which was a wonderful balance of old fashion thai cuisine with a dash of modernity. u'll find things like fish ceviche and squid ink fried rice on the menu. i was pumped! i tried to look it up on the gps and nothing came up. i got hold of the number and it was out of service. determined, we made our way to the heritage village anyway. silently hoping for a miracle.

it was beyond hot that day.. as it has been for the past week, which did nothing to brighten my mood. and to make matters worse, the restaurant did close down. All we saw were the signage and a note pasted on the door saying they had closed down and will re-open indefinitely. INDEFINITELY...ckp je la tutup forever...i was crushed!! sedih giler!! we had come all this way and i was already mentaly ordering all the things i wanted to try.. but it was already wayy past lunch time and we hadnt eaten yet so we trudged to the nearest place we saw, a persian rest wich was devoid of people which to me meant mediocre food.

i wasnt entirely wrong. the food was just ok. when i asked for a recommendation all the waiter suggested was the lamb kebab. jj had already asked for that so i wanted sumtin else. when i asked for another recommendation, he gave me the same one. i think they were out of everything else on the menu. i settled for the beef lamb kebab coz everything else seemed to have beans in it. im not a fan of beans in savoury dishes so i skipped that.

food was just ok, a little light on the spices which wasnt very middle eastern-ish as they're normaly pretty liberal with their spices. kebab's were served with plain white rice, albeit fluffy rice sprinkled with saffron rice. and when i asked for dessert he told me they were out of it. they had 3 items listed in the desserts section and they were out of all of it. at the end of my meal however, i saw the caucasion gentlemen next to me nursing a dish of ice cream. it was pretty upsetting but i didnt feel like making a fuss, esp when i saw the dessert looked like plain chocolate n vanilla ice cream.

then i remembered that i've been wanting to try this mille crepe cake forever!! i read it on a few blogs and a mari sed it was to die forr!! a few taps on the gps and we were on our way!! it was a little tricky to find but we manage to locate it and sat down to omg the bestest dessert cake ever!!!

i love layered desserts!! esp such a delicate one!! its basically tissue thin crepes layered with custard creme. its so delicate and intricate and looked like it needed a lot of patience to do! sumtin im lacking in. and it was basically heaven on a dessert fork! we ordered vanilla and fell in love. then we ordered mango. on another visit we tried strawberry and both agreed that vanilla is still the best flavour. i loveeeeeee to sit and stare at the beautiful layers and savour the delicate thin-ness of the crepe on my tongue. sedap gilerr!!

if you're ever near pj. do drop by ok. but try not to do so on a hot hot hottt day as the rest does not have aircond. on a hot hot afternoon, with the fan spinning lazily above, i was transported back to my school days. felt like those days, after waktu rehat when it was burning hot and the fans offered little comfort, spinning hot air around us. but the mille cakes make it all worth it!! go ok!

Food Foundry
BG-8, Happy Mansion

Jalan 17/13,
46400 Petaling Jaya,
Selangor.


Tel: 03-79553885

Splitsville

a friend of mine recently told me that her wedding, which is scheduled for next month, has been called off. she has called her make up artist to cancel their service, and her dress is due for pickup nxt week. cancellations have been done on the hall she has booked and caterers have been informed. This weekend will be all about calling everything off, from the dewan, to the juru nikah, to the photographers. it truly breaks my heart when i see frens get hurt like this. especially when its gone as far as engagements and planned weddings. i hope and pray she'll be fine.


jj asked me once why i wanted to marry him. and i was at a loss for words. which is a big deal considering the mouth i have on me. he asked me to think it over and to give him an answer wen im ready.


later that nite we were hanging out in the kitchen talking then i realised why i wanted to marry him.


i wanted to marry him for his patience and for the trust he has in me.


i related an incident to him. once we had a fight, and didnt talk for almost 2 days. then for sum reason he thought i went out with another guy (which of course i did not). dspite thinking i was out with sumone else n  being upset with me and stuff, he never did get angry with me for it.  when we finally reconciled and met, he was just relieved and happy to see me, despite still thinking i went out with someone else. when i told him i didnt, he was just glad. he has so much patience it amazes me.

i drafted this post a while back but never got around to publishing it. but he's leaving again for adelaide in a couple of days. longer this time so im feeling a lil sentimental :(  bear with me ok

Will & Kate plus 6 billion

omg so who did not watch the royal wedding!? some ppl are going all 'kate who? married prince watshisface?' i am gonnna be honest and say that i have been waiting for this day a long long looooooooooong time. well i was initially hoping i would be the one saying i do to prince watshisface but life's not fair like that and i moved on (sort of). i made my dad bring me back some wedding souvenir when he went to london. he got me a mug!! yes yes im obsessed get over it!! i actually worked from home on friday so i wouldnt miss a second of the wedding. i was parked with my laptop on my bed with the tv channel alternating between E news and ntv7 which broadcasted the entire thing live. i gotta say... ntv7's commentation was boring and lacklustre.

my mom who was in bandung at the time said the channels there provided a much deeper insight and was bragging to me that she knew the dress maker had to change the needle every 3 hours while making kate's dress coz she wanted each poke to be precise and needed a sharp needle.

it was a lovely wedding. and to all those ppl who called me during the course of it. pls go play in traffic. seriously. this is history in the making and ur calling me to ask whr i do my waxing. *gives dirty look to ayien* i was so anal about catching the whole thing i got upset when ppl barge in to my room to tell me sumtin. i mean seriously. i watched the 'i will' part w papa who was going on n on n onnnn about how she was old matured compared to Princess Di and how she wasnt as pretty or demure. but i thot she look stunning!! in a smart intelligent women kindda way. kann!!

and the dress!! oh myy!!some people scoff and say its too simple and unfit for a royal wedding. i say it looks perfect on her. she's not the kind who would choose to wear a 26 feet long train. i mean imagine the weight!? i believe she's the sensible type and i applaud her for it. yesterday mama was showing me the material she got for my wedding and i saw a piece and asked what is this? she went 'oh dat was supp to be ur veil but kate's wasnt this material' and threw the thing. 'were getting a new one, like kate's'. i love her. my mom. not kate.

and i am still amazed that she chose to do her own make up!! im having a small wedding and im anal about having my make up done perfectly. nightmares and all. and she's got 6 billion people watching her and she chose to do her own makeup!!! amazing!!!

kate truly is one of a kind, i hope she doesnt let all the mean comments get to her. i heard william had to hold a press conference to ask the media to give them some breathing space coz all the negative comments were starting to get to kate and she even turned bulimic at one point after news of her getting fat were abuzz. fat!??? herr!?! that wud make me obese.

i wihs them a long happy life together and i cannot wait for her to pop little royals soon!!

homecoming

So in one of my last post i rambled about how jj was gonna leave me for a long time. turns out 'long time' wasnt THAT long. well it feels like forever. but a shorter forever compared to the inital scary forever.ok fine its just 6 days compared to 4 months. im a happy pixie. i swear la klu 4 months i pon will go n berkampung thr. i love this arrangement where he will go for a couple of days at a time on and off for the duration of 4 months. i know he really appreciates it too. the day he arrived he moaned on n on n onnnnn about how boring it was there and how he cannot wait to come home.

of course i relished hearing him sound so bored. hehe. yes yes im selfish like that. coz i reasoned, if he had fun there, he wouldnt remember me as much hence he will forget to call, buy stuff for me, n not miss me. no no. wont have none of that. n he's coming home soon! i soo cant wait!!

~he's coming home... coming home... tell the world he's coming homeee~

gonna go pick him up from the airport and be all sappy mcm dia xbalik dah 16 tahun

ABC

Last week we discovered tonana can now recite the ABC perfectly when we asked what she had learned in school. seriously... we shud start talking more abt school stuff with her.. had no idea she cud do that...

Macaron Snob

i was really excited and psyched to make macarons this weekend. then i read this and all confidence i had went out d window :(

Pukul kang!?!

So jj will be leaving town in a couple of days. his company is sending him sumwhere for a period of time which im not very happy about. but i guess i should be thankful they picked him. rezeki nk kawen org kate. and i am thankful!- for him. im just really bummed out for me. they gave him a rather short notice considering the fact that he would be there for a considerable amount of time. of course he wud need time to gather his things n pack up. but nope. no off days to do that. and guess wat? do it during weekends? out the window! coz guess wat!? he's got to work thru weekends as well!?! so ive been mentally imagining his company as a person, and in my head, ive hit it with a rock, ran over it with a steamroller and pushed it off various cliffs countless times.

and seeing as to how he's leaving so soon, weve been scrambling to go out everynight amidst my tight schedule of readings and tuitions and whatnots. we had to go to all the restaurants we (i) wanted to try and catch all the movies we (i) wanted to watch before he left. and the day before yesterday we went to snowflakes in kota damansara and i fell in love. then lastnite we went to  honeymoon cafe and it was just ok ok la. bt snowflakes was fantabulous! i have a knack for desserts and all things new n weird especially wen it comes to food. i wanna try em all!!!

im so glad im not reading this weekend so were can spend more time before he leaves. we wud be able to go out more had it not been for his company *pushes company into heavy traffic*. but i guess we'll have to make do. were going to his parents for his brothers birthday and their place is right before the F1 circuit. i wan to cry imagining the traffic.

ive been going into clingy gf mode which i hate but i cant help it. ill be fine (i hope) once everything is sorted out n i wave him off at the airport. ill be down in d dumps for a while and will probably burrow a hole in which i would curl in every date nite and wallow in self pity.

SNAP OUT OF IT WOMAN!!! ill b fine!!! of course!! n evryday i'll spend a few hours minutes each day imagining the things he's buying to bring back for me.

*punches company smack dab in the face just because*

old but gold

Sumtimes i feel like we're such a predicatable couple... like an old married couple who routinely do the same thing week in week out... my feelings were confirmed this morning when my dad asked me as i was leaving for work.

papa- so going out for a movie tonite?

me- yeah! howd u know!?

papa- isnt wed ur movie nite?

me- are we that transparent!?

but i guess he wud remember coz evrytime i stay out late, sabrina wud crash with my parents since im not around. which equals to her hogging the bed and result in grandpapa sleeping on the futon on the floor.

anyhoo! i cant wait for tonite! dinner and a movie. n i dont care if were predicatable. i like it! n i like routines. n sure some people wud say im boring but im not! im just not a fan of the clubbing nightlife scene.. i get real grumpy wen im sleepy and tired n thrs loud music n ciggarete smoke n d sour smell of beer makes me wanna barf. n i especailly hate it when i come out n my hair smells smokey n stale.. like old cigarette butts. i love outdoor activities! just a couple of weeks ago we went on the ATV. n i was the only girl in d group. i wud put up pictures if i didnt look like a hippo in all of them. but i do. so yea.

Tutorina

ok i know its been forever but ive been so busy with work and d stupid system that keeps on dying on us. and then theres d tuitions. and babysitting cakbina. she's at the terrible two stage so ive been pretty preoccupied trying to keep  her from burning the house down. just yesterday i got an asthma attack from laughing too hard when she wrestled me to the floor, trying to stick her finger up my nose.

its going pretty well with tuition, cept for this one student i have who's quite a pain in the butt. her younger sister, whom i also tutor is such a joy to teach. she's not the obedient kind but she doest rebel like her sister does. ill make her read her novel out loud and explain it to her later and when she gets tired, she stop and say 'teacher.... tired...!' and shove the book under my nose and go 'ur turn, now u read!' and grin. so we actually took turns reading and explaining the novel. i wud make her explain each chapter thoroughly to make her understand thestory as it unfolds. ok i actually wanted to write about her rebelious sister. they come from a broken family and are living with their mum. its sad but i have a feeling this rebelion was somewhat a result of the broken marriage. she would cancel classes almost every week. she'd text me and make up sum lame excuse. a quick call to her mom would reveal that the mum had no idea whatsoever of the daughters 'illness'. another friend of mine who teaches her accounts also has the same problem. so i have a class with her tonite.. part of me is hoping she's gonna cancel.. hehe.. but a part of me is also waiting to pounce on her of she does. oh well...

also is it mean that i bring all sorts of chocolates and treats when im teaching the nice little sister to munch on while i teach, and bring nothing for the kakak when its her turn? well in my defense, she makes this really rude 'so what' face when i teach and it takes all of my strength to keep myself from slapping her. and i thought it was gonna be a pretty and pink year coz ALL of my students are girls. but i do count my blessings that she's the only rotten apple of the lot. the rest are perfectly A ok.

I just hope all the effort will pay off like it did last year. it felt like winning the lottery when that spoiled brat, who used to fail both subjects i taught, got A's! hearing his mum screaming her thank yous made all the hair pulling, body slapping, (yes i hit my students sometimes) and raised blood pressure (on my part)- worth it

bread story

OMGG!!! byk nye work i can pengsann!!! ok im not procrastinating ppl.. system is down at d moment so i blog lah!! not much is happening in my life.. still dream of losing weight.. i swear this ageing thing does not bode well w me. i mean d way my metabolic rate is goin ud think im 60! i mean u used to be able to eat so much n stay d same weight but now!! haiyo.. i went to a wedding the other day. i woke up in d morning n immediately tried on clothes i wanted to wear to d said wedding. EVERYTHING FIT!! sum was even loose-ish u know! so i was uber happy and packed my stuff to go to his parents place to have lunch. we were gonna get ready and push off fr thr. after doing my hair n make up- he ironed my hair ok comel x!!- i put on my baju and i cud hardly breath!! i mean really how much cud i have grown in the span of 9 hours!! its crazy!! i love looking at myself in the morning before i shower... i avoid looking at mirrors before bedtime to avoid self loathing..

i havent cooked or baked anything in a while... he claims to have lost weight... i notice he looses weight wen i dont cook for long periods of time... wonder how ginormous he's gonna get wen we live togather after we're married... *shudder*

oh oh!! yesterday i bought charcoal bread!! i have a thing for bread and i love to try different kinds like w d seeds stuff and like green tea bread, or like red bean bread. so yesterday i got charcoal bread! ive been wanting to try it for sum time now bt he'd go 'ur never gonna eat it so dun bother la!' bt yesterday i got a loaf n fell in love! i love trying out new food and well bread isnt exactly like eating a spider or anything but eating a black coloured bread can be daunting for some. like jj who refused to take a bite.. and my bro who balked and refused to touch his plate after i put my half eaten charcoal bread on it. seriously la u ppl. dun b so boring can or not! i made an egg sandwich w my awesome bread n i loved itt! despite the colour, it didnt taste much diff den normal bread cept it tasted better!! coz it was slightly sweetish and really2 fluffy. spose to be good for u so try it ok!! normal white bread seems so boring now.. oh and we got tickets to watch disney on ice nx weekend! cant wait!!

delish!!

Discount Queen

Of late ive been addicted to discount sites. I find myself religiously checking all the sites i know everyday... ok dats a lie... a couple of times a day in hopes of finding good bargains. I have had some pretty good buys but i have to admit these discounted meals often skimp on ingredients and are more often the not- reduced in size. which is fine by me but my other half who eats like a dino may disagree. anyhoo!! today i went to milkadeal.com and got us a really cheap roller skating package!! remember roller skates!?? they came before roller blades!! roller blades r near extinction now n roller skates are like fossils!

These discounted sites often offer cheap hard to resist buy. and people like me- who cannot resist a bargain often fall victim to their ads. which reminds me- i still have two body spa vouchers that i purchased 2 months back.. my point is.. eventho these sites offer cheap buys- it does not mean we have to hog it all!! be smart and try to seperate the really good ones from the 'ok ok only' ones. like this one meal set package i bought last month. promising juicy steaks n all. what i actually got was a piece of thin meat so dry and tough if was like eating an old slipper. and the dessert promised, turned out to be tapioca tapai swimming in strawberry flavoured milk- yes milk. served with ice cream. we ate the ice cream n left the rest. but we got a buffet once that was really satisfying and it was a plus point that we were one of two couples dining that nite. it was like a private buffet. we kindda went a lil crazy w the food and could barely walk to the car afterwards.

so remember guys. next time u want to go crazy on these sites, do a websearch on the restaurant ok! or spa place or watever k! 

here's a list of discounted sites which i frequent
http://mydeal.com.my/
http://www.dealmates.com.my/
http://jackcow.com/
http://www.ilovediscounts.my/

have a happy weekend y'all!!

~ mine will be filled with weddings 

Sugar spice n all things nice

So i have been mulling over what to give as wedding favours for some time now... i think ive gotten the reception favours down pat. but im not sure about favours for our solemnization ceremony.. i kindda want to make something myself since there wont be too many guests, so i guess it'll be manageble.

i wanted something personal. something i made myself with love, from my heart. i scratched out cookies coz it has to be made fresh n there is no way im gonna slough in the kitchen on the day before my wedding, also, its rather dangerous as id probably consume half of it n not fit into my dress on the day. so cookies r a no no. then i thought about sumtin else. dun freak out ok. i thought of making flavoured salt! brilliant!? no? well u kno how much i LOVEEEE to cook!? so i thought what better to show thanks to those who came then to give them something which is so me!? n i will def be doing a considerable amount of cookng after the wedding so.. perfect!!! kan?? i though of making like a salt rub so people cn bring it home n rub their meat n chicken with it and grill or bake it or even bbq it or even make stir fry's with it! genius idea!!

Kindda like this but with a narrower prettier jar

i also thot of making sumthing simpler like rosemary salt or thyme salt! u know it smells heavenly and u can sprinkle it on ur pies n stuff till i thot about how often msians actually make pastries and scratched that idea... i planned to make some flavoured salt, and some flavoured sugar n put them in pretty jars tied with pretty bows with labels on them. i was plenty proud of myself till i went n told mom. she shot me down like a bird with a simple statement- "eee.. meraban la"

I wanted to cry!! i had all these ideas in my head n all sorts of recipes for the salt rub n flavoured sugar n types of jars i was gonna use n all. wen she saw my face she went "ok. we can consider it. well discuss it at next dewan rakyat meeting". haiyo, im already letting her choose the theme colour, lemme have my salt rub la maa!!! xsalt rub pon xpe. we can make pretty flavoured sugar kn!? so now my idea has been submitted to the dewan rakyat, pending approval. mcm approval xkn dtg je... mom really wants the pretty cut out cookies that r all the rage now. i think they're rather common kn? not like salt rub n flavoured sugar kn??

bagi pokok kang... but pretty kn d pokok.. ok i also suggested giving these little plants.. n got the same meraban response.. i think mama should really try thinking out of the box once in a while...

**All images courtesy of mr google