Updates!

i am a nervous wreck. i can hardly sleep. i read the news quite frequently last week so i was sleep deprived- but last night i was in bed by 10 and my eyes wouldnt shut. at one point i had yawned so much my pillows were soaked. i hate this feeling. even more so when i see how relaxed jj is. not fair. guys have it so easy.


lina n dayah came over n helped me stick thank u tags on my favours last night. im so grateful coz really- it was a lot. i had insisted on doing them myself instead of getting the store to do it for us coz i wanted to have that wedding feel! u know when ur room is messy with stacks of boxes and u have people in every corner of the house doing sumtin. beautiful chaos. well i had 2 people over lastnite- plus my aunts.. n my room was def in a terrible state- and we had dinner in my room. it was fun :) thanks korg!!


we viewed our pre wedding vid lastnight. n omg were we THAT fat!?? ok yeah we sorta were... n my nose is so bulat!!! if i were rich id get a nose job!- ok no i wouldnt coz it looks painful. we liked the vid. its really cute n colourful but there was a scene whr we were running n i swear i have the ugliest run. it looked like i had broken a knee and twisted an ankle! burok giler!! Im never running on camera again- EVER!


I think were about done with everything cept for the seating arrangements- my nemesis. i cringe thinking about it. my dad was saying something about making it free seating- save us the headache. the hall ppl have yet to pass us the floor plan cn u believe it!??! ish sakit perut la pk!! i think ive aged more in this 1 month then i have this whole year. im only going on leave on thursday coz my cuti's r limited.


on a sadder note- we still have not gotten the keys to our house. its been almost 2 years kott!! n its not even a new dev!! ud think were getting a 7 million ringgit crib but really its just a simple modest home! so we'll be staying at his grandma's place- who just passed away by the way :( i hv to admit im a lil hesitant seeing that ive nvr lived on my own but i guess marriage is about starting our lives togather n really i sorta dont have a choice kot.. it is a lil daunting staying at a house whose owner passed away just last week tho....


my systems have gone haywire with the stress. ive been on mc 4 days this month. n i discovered i had gastric. ME!! who has never missed a meal in my LIFE!! seems stress cn do horrible things to u.. i hope all illness keep away till the big day...


eeekkkk!!! scared nyeeeeeee!!

13 days!

1 week 6 days!! omigosh!! feels like thrs so much to do but i dont know whr to start!! im so disorganized!! my wedding organizer is god knows whr! i carried it arnd in my bag arnd jakarta in the early few months then my bag got heavy with the million other essential stuff that it seemed safer for my posture if it just stayed in my room/car/ofc drawer. now im really not sure whr it is....

n it irks me so much that msians are useless when it comes to RSVP-ing!! so far only 30% of the guests hv reverted back to me. my brain feels like its in a constant block. and i think i have amnesia. like i was super excitedly telling jj about sumtin n he flatly went- weve had this exact conversation yesterday. dont u remember?? n the thing is that i dont! i have no recollection at ALL about it!- or mayb he's just messing w my head... hurmm... but this has happend a few times w friends as well. i seriously need to get my head togather...

my babes threw me a surprise shower last weekend which i will write about in the next pose. it was wonderful! i wish nat could have been thr tho :)

sneak preview of what is to come :p

20 days!

So its 20 days before the big day and im breaking out like a teenager!!  its really really frustrating coz the LAST thing i need is a face full of zits!! ive been slathering on oitments and gels and all sorts of miracle crap n none of it seems to work. mom asked me to take it easy coz its stress that's causing my moon face. it doesnt even seem like pimples anyway.. its like mosquito bites.. u know like fat round welts on my cheeks. urghhhh so irritating!!

disgusting skin aside- i got my crown!! we went to this marvellous place in semua house which sells tiara's of all shapes n sizes n i went a little overboard trying them ALL out. i mean all. after i had chosen my normal sized tiara, i walked around the store trying on each massive sized tiara that would have made the queen mother look at hers in shame. i walked arnd the store n waved at ppl. they waved back n sed i looked pretty :) i love that store- its my new happy place. by the time we left, we were friends with most of them- bride to be's cn be the nicest people sometimes.

we're having some trouble with the house we purchased so we'll be bunking with my parents for a while. i cleaned out my room of unwanted trash on sunday to make space for jj n his stuff. amazing how much things can be collected over the years. i donated 3 bags of clothes- some were still in perfect condition, but i will be undergoing some major wardobe changes after the wedding so most some items were deemed unsuitable. none was happier then kak in who was picking thru my clothes like she was at the boxing day sale.

so all that needs to be done at this point is-

1. Send my wedding clothes for pressing/ steaming- whatever it is they do to get the creases out.

2. Pass one more hantaran item to my hantaran lady

3. Food tasting

4. Clear my face of icky yucky welts

5. Colour my hair for the very last time- coz really my hair has been so badly abused, it deserves to retire from contact with any form chemical.

6. Clear another drawer for JJ in my room. Coz it seems 2 drawers isnt enuf. pffft!- what r u planning to bring the entire mens dept at the store?? sheesh... 2 drawers cukup la kn??! i NEED the other 7..

7. Mail a few more cards

8. Deliver some cards to my babes!

9. Bug the hell out of my make up artists lest they forget!

10. Anddd pick up last min things like chocolates, desserts and cakes and stuff!

At my cousin's wedding last weekend. lookie my face, it looks round coz i ate sumtin that made it urm... swell n puff up.. yeah thats it... coz im actually not that chubby... damn u 'everything sumtin i ate'

Thats about it kot... for now...

20 daysss!!! ughhhh ive got flying dinosaurs in my tummy n moon craters on my cheeks- bummer

toodlooo lovelies!!

Brush with the law

Last weekend, i was driving alone in my car, my mind fully occupied with all things wedding. I absentmindedly picked up my phone n speed dialed my fiancee to remind him of things we needed to settle and ok fine im no angel- i actually do that ALL THE TIME!! eleh i know u guys do the same! who doesnt talk on the phone while driving!?!? in my defence- i did buy a handsfree kit! but it didnt work! i never bothered to get it checked or get a new one coz i was plain lazy.

as i was driving, a huge white crv passed me by and i saw the 'polis' logo 2 seconds too late. the officer was pointing me out to his collegue n they slowed down in front of me on a busy busy road with no curb. so we were basically stopped on a busy road- blocking off an entire lane- im sorry people of pj!! 

mighty embarrasing it was- but i was more scared out of my wits then i was embarrassed of course! the more senior looking officer came up to my window n i immediately passed him my license n id. he was being all officerly and was totally judging me. i did what i had too.. i went all innocent mengade gedik like if i werent desperate i would hit myself.

police man- awk tau awk buat salah ape?

me:  tauuu... im sorryyy...

police man: jalan ni busy,.. skrg ni by accident sbb ckp tepon ni...

me: im sorry pakcik... sy salah... tp sy promise sy x buat dah!! promiseee!!

policeman glances at passanger seat n notices my stack of wedding invites

me: sy nk kawen bulan dpn... jgn la saman saye.... *makes a face my cat would scratch if he sees*

police man: ape kene mengene kawen ngn ckp tepon!?

me: *shocked my face tactic didnt work??* mayb its broken...

police man: hah! awk ni nk kawen darah manis ni. jgn bwk mcm ni.. hrmmm... dah... nx time b careful.. jgn ckp tepon sambile drive.. ok jalan.

me: *i still got it!! its not brokenn!! thank u goddddd- and policeman* -thank u pakcik!!! byee :)

ok truth be told.. this is the 4th time i have been stopped for talking on the phone while driving. n i am so thankful that so far my pathetic facial expression has helped me get out of those sticky situations. gets better with practice i reckon. but in all seriousness- i will TRY to cut down on yakking or fb-ing on my phone while driving. stop calling me when im driving plsss!! im trying to b all strong n disciplined and a blinking ringing phone really doesnt help.

have a lovely thursday beautiful!

The storyteller

Everyday i leave for the office at 725am. I use the same road and highway. day in n day out. But on the days where i get the luxury of coming in a bit late, i leave at 830am. This doesnt happen often, so its quite a treat. On days that i leave later, the journey will be different. The sun hurts my eyes a bit more as they hover a lil higher, the traffic surprisingly is always better, and the shouting lady is always at the same spot, rooted to the ground, shouting up to the sky about god knows what. She looks clean n proper. Like if wasnt shouting to the sky, you probably wouldnt even notice her coz she blends in with the crowd like a normal person.

Everytime i see her, she's standing opposite the bus stand, screaming up to the sky, narrating stories and asking questions. i know this because i always roll down the window to listen to her. The 1st time i saw her, i thot she was putting up buntings by the road side. a couple of encounters later, i learned that she's - how do i put this in a polite manner... mentally disturbed? but she doesnt hurt people. in fact she doesnt even seem to notice the people who passes by her. She has quite an audience tho. I guess the people who frequent the bus stand know her pretty well by now. I feel like stopping and talking to her sometimes, get to know her story, what happened to her and who TH is she talking to!?? but of course theres this annoying thing called work... and im kindda scared she might get annoyed and push me into traffic.

So for now ill just look forward to the occasional brushes we might have. With me listening to little snippets of her stories- once she was telling a story about shooting, complete with machine gun action. She will probably never even know me but i wish her well..

38 days to go!

I feel like days are slipping by so quickly now. Its like i blinked and the week has gone by. I have yet to try my dress on again- with my post raya body. As of yesterday, i have reconfirmed my booking with all my make up artists 5 times. I hope i have not irked them too much coz i have 2 more reminders to give them before the big day. I hope they still turn up... i dont wanna have to pull a kate middleton (or kate wellington as mari would say) on my wedding day.

I actually have tonnes to do still but im rather contented sitting on my round tushie and having friendly banters with na who seriously is growing up so fast and she really is her own person! yesterday she insisted on goin to sleep in her baju kurung instead of her pj's. --> lina i understand now y u got your tudung the day before ur wedding... i havent found mine... nor have i the interest to actually start looking for it... n i still dun have a tiara. oh dont judge me! its the only day i can get away with wearing one! and we still have not gotten the keys to our new place. we def have to stay sumwhr for a month or two b4 moving in. he's not keen on staying at my mom's. Im not very happy about staying at his kajang as suggested by his dad. i mean really?? id get lost everyday!! n its really far!! its like a whole other country!!

on a totally unrelated note-

If there was one thing i could change about myself- i would make myself less edgy. Im soooo nervous all the time! n i often times let my imagination run wild. like this morning. jj slept at cyber last night. he used to stay here but he moved to be closer to me :) anyway. he arrived late and it was raining n all but watever. I slept really early coz i fed na her meds n she conked out at 830 n i followed soon after. i spoke to him just before i fell asleep n he was having dinner.

when i woke up the nx morning i called to wake him as per usual. there was no answer. he seldom doesnt pick up my calls but i figured- he must have slept real late lastnite catching up w d boys. so i gave him 10 mins more and called again. stil no answer. i gave him 5 more mins of sleep time- and he stil wasnt pickin up! i was starting to panic by this point n called again. n texted him. n called again. my over imaginative mind kicked in at this point- omg, he's lying in a ditch sumwhr. or omg, he died playing soccer n his friends are all too afraid to tell me. i had visions of his friends standing around his phone, all too afraid to answer it and give me the dreaded news. i go psycho sometimes. forgive me. in the end when he finaly called me 1 hour 41 minutes later- i was naturally livid!! n he knew it! he was being all mousy n nice n i had gone all makcik on him. i HATE it when he doesnt pick up n he knows it! i was all the more upset when i discovered his phone was rite nx to him. grrrrr. so as punishment, he's treating me dinner at a place of my choice tonite. and im making him watch bridesmaids- a true 'pink' chickflick at midnight- knowing he's sleep deprived. and no. he's not allowed to sleep during the course of the entire movie. oh n did i mention he's goin to have to take me out for early breakfast the following day as well?



the martian im marrying

the fatty marrying the martian

jakarta

46 days

So the wedding's in 46 days! im in the midst of sending out the invites and its so frustrating that i cannot invite everybody- the downside of having a sit down wedding dinner. i cannot wait for the wedding to be over. i dont know y im not excited about the wedding itself. im more looking forward to the marriage. i did get a lil excited when passing out invites at the ofc this morning tho. like fuyooohh this is for real! like im telling people yuuhuuuu im getting married y'all!! but in all honesty- this wedding business is pretty draining if u ask me! im just praying hard imma fit into my dress and that i dun trip n fall flat on my face!


i had a falling out w a friend of mine a couple of weeks back. i was hurt by sumthing she sed n she was upset w me for sumtin else. i guess all this wedding frenzy has got all our panties in a twist and dont even get me started on the hormones!! oh myyy!! im so sick of crying at tv commercials! the other day i cried over breakfast while telling jj a story. i hardly ever cry! in fact im always laughing at mama n my sister for being such leaky faucets!


sumtin funny happened last weekend. jj n i had just finished watching a movie, i needed a toilet break so i went to the ladies. while i was goin about doing a number 1. i sat on the throne n went about doing my business. just as i was done, it started raining in my cubicle. were not talking fine sprays of water here no siree!! it was a full blown storm of fat water droplets rain minus the thunder!! picture this. i was on the throne w my jeans around my ankles squinting (for fear of loosing my contact lense) thru the rain trying to find the source of this catastrophe. on second thot- Dont. i hastily put my pants back on all the while wondering if the building was on fire n its the sprinklers that r raining down on me. my carefully blown hair had gone all curly bcause of the sudden downpour. my handbag n shawl were soaked- as was i. then i realised the water source actually came fr d cubicle nx to mine! i went out n stood in front of the door of the leaky cubicle and was ready to give her a good dripping piece of my mind!! a girl in tudung n baju kurung stepped out, took one look at my dripping hair n walked away!!? can u believe it!? she walked away!! i stepped in front of her n went- what happened??!? she started pointing to the faucet n the door n babbled sumtin n just turned on her heels n left! pls note that she was all dry and non frazzled. no apologies whatsoever. what is it w malaysians n apologising. when i was younger my mom wud smack me silly evrytime i forgot to say sorry or thank u or please. ur momma didnt smack u enuf! she left in such a hurry she didnt even wash her hands- rude n dirty. eeew. but it was so hilarious!! i laughed out loud all the way out n cudnt wait to tell jj wat happened. that girl is super rude alright! but it was so funny lah!!


no raya updates from me coz raya was rather subdued. we went back to our new place in kedah n eeee so byk insect its disgusting!! we came back with itches and marks here n there fr the various types of insects that were buffet-ing on us. its a frogs heaven i tell u. i took sum pics of the beautiful view from my room bt as always- have yet to transfer them.


Selamat hari raya y'all!! n maaf zahir batin.

61 days!!

My ring is ready!! its beautiful n i love it! we fell in love with the display one in the store but that one was designed for a much bigger diamond and for way bigger fingers. of course my diamond was smaller n i have a size 7 finger which apparently is really small. so they had to custom make it to fit my finger n the diamond we bought earlier.the dsign on the ring is really intricate and had to be done by hand. it took about 40 days to create and wen we went to pick it up were werent sure it was the correct one coz all the detailings were small compared to the one we saw (of course).. we took a closer look n realised heyy!! it is our ringg!! just smaller!! n i love it! we were both wearing n admiring our rings last nite n jj wanted to tke em out for a 'test drive'. of course i sed no! id kill him if anything happened to them before the wedding. plus it was all shiny and sparkly, the hazey air will tarnish it.

We have gotten all 1173 of our pre wedding photos last week and i get nauseous looking at them coz really- theres so many!!! never have i had my pic taken 37 times in one pose.

also. my dress has arrived!! n its really heavy... i tried it on just once n it was of course a nightmare getting into coz i have as much patience as a 3 year old but we had to be reallllly careful coz the fabric is really delicate n my mom warned me not to put on even a kilo coz she's afraid i wont be able to fit into the dress. and with raya coming up its gonna b a real struggle for me.. nat told me to go out without my glasses or lenses then id b blind as a bat n wont see food therefore i wont eat them. but hello? i kindda have a nose, a pretty powerful one too- but only where food applies. I can often times guess what my neighbours are cooking based on the wafts that come thru my windows.. Its gonna be pretty tough raya for me this year! mayb i should wear a corset... but i kindda like breathing.. so thats out.. gotta go back to the basics and work the old will power i guess.. not that its ever worked before tho..

2 months n 1 day to go!!

Honey! Im home!!

Jj's back on malaysian soil!! i have yet to see him coz he arrived late last night and went to work this morning but we'll be breaking fast togather tonite! i cannot wait! he requested ayam masak lemak cili padi. Its been so long since i last cooked for him im kindda excited!

Did u know that i can make a complete dinner for 6 people in under an hour including appetizers and dessert- but i cannot for the life of me make a good cup of coffee for my man. I always get a lil freaked out when he requests for coffee.. which is not very often for reasons i can guess. He normally asks me to make them only if he's realllllly tired or if were going sumwhr super early in the morning. Most times he goes for the instant or canned variety. but i make a mean coffee cupcake! maybe he should rethink his choice of caffeine...

On another note,  watched 'Haunted Changi' over the weekend and it scared me silly. I initially watched it alone then decided i needed sumone to hold me so i went over to kak in's room and got na to watch it with me. She was all macho and brave as she got under the covers with me.. At the 1st glimpse of the ghost she jumped off the bed and scolded me for letting her watch sumtin so creepy and haughtily went back to her mom's room. i got told off by a 2 1/2 year old.. Finally forced mama to watch it with me, which we did so on mute- a standard when watching a  horror movie with mama.

Im getting married in 2 months and a week!!!

Im dying to do a write up on places i went to get my stuff in jkt but i think it'll have to wait till after the wedding.

Till then! adieu!!

Home is where the heart is

Guess what guess what guess whattt!??? JJ will be coming home wayy earlier then expected!!! apparently he's almost overstayed his business trip this time (which in AUS is a max of 90 days) so the company has no choice but to let him leave and cont working from the KL ofc. I mean seriously. U nvr thot of this before?!?? u HAD to lug him ALL THE WAY across the world!??- ok not really accross the world but sort of..- and left me here alone to die for 6 months!??

ok emotional drama's aside. Im glad he'll be coming home for good- i hope. No more surprises ok boss? i cannot wait to buka puasa with him! or as na would say it. cannot wait to buka Kuasa with him. I asked her yesterday. 'na puasa tak harini??' and she answered 'kuasa laa'- while chomping on a mouthfull of chips.

I read this joke recently that made me ponder about married life- after i laughed my head off that is..

A young couple decided to wed. As the big day approached, they grew apprehensive. Each had a problem they had never before shared with anyone, not even each other.


The Groom-to-be, overcoming his fear, decided to ask his father for advice. "Father," he said, "I am deeply concerned about the success of my marriage."


His father replied, "Don't you love this girl?"


"Oh yes, very much," he said," but you see, I have very smelly feet, and I'm afraid that my fiance will be put off by them."


"No problem," said dad, "all you have to do is wash your feet as often as possible,and always wear socks, even to bed." Well, to him this seemed a workable solution.


The bride-to-be, overcoming her fear, decided to take her problem up with her mom." Mom," she said, "When I wake up in the morning my breath is truly awful."


"Honey," her mother consoled, "everyone has bad breath in the morning."


"No, you don't understand,. My morning breath is so bad, I'm afraid that my fiance will not want to sleep in the same room with me."


Her mother said simply, "Try this. In the morning, get straight out of bed, and head for the kitchen and make breakfast. While the family is busy eating, move on to the bathroom and brush you teeth. The key is, not to say a word until you've brushed your teeth."


"I shouldn't say good morning or anything?" the daughter asked.


"Not a word," her mother affirmed.


"Well, it's certainly worth a try," she thought.


The loving couple were finally married. Not forgetting the advice each had received, he with his perpetual socks and she with her morning silence, they managed quite well. That is, until about six months later. Shortly before dawn one morning, the husband wakes with a start to find that one of his socks had come off. Fearful of the consequences, he frantically searches the bed. This, of course, wakes his bride and without thinking, she asks, "What on earth are you doing?"


"Oh, my," he replies, "you've swallowed my sock!"

Lalut

Hiya peeps!

How has puasa been for u guys?? My 1st day went rather well. Other then the fact that i felt like dying an hour from iftar and had to lie down in the kitchen while my niece played doctor and well she really thot i had died...- all was well :)

I made a creamy chicken pie and carved a smiley face into it. While i was rolling the dough, i gave sabrina a portion of it so she was workin on it for all she was worth and told me to move coz i was crowding her and her 'cake'. I 'the pie baker' was crowding her 'the ever so busy little pest'.

We watched twillight last night coz she insisted on watching a horror movie. Twilight was as close to a horror movie as i could find. Not that she watched it anyway. Other then screaming questions up my nose- literally up my nose. She had her face half an inch from mine and was shouting (she talks real loud) WHY IS IT DOING THAT MAMA NA!!?!? WHYY!??? WHY IS THE PFFF (she means 'wolf') CHASING THAT LADY MAMA NA!!??? WHYYYYY!?!??

Then when bella jumped off the cliff into the ocean she grabbed my face with both hands and went. NA PON NAK MANI (mandi) LALUT!!!

Ok makcik becok aside. I wanna tell u guys how i fell the other day :( it wasnt a clumsy little slip and fall. no no. i went the entire mile and landed on both my knees and slammed myself onto the floor. and to make matters worse, i shattered my car keys. oh and let me tell u- i fell in front of a whole bunch of guys who were smoking. humiliation aside. It HURT!! like really hurt!! im still doing my daily prayers sitting on a chair coz my knees are still bruised blue black. when i fell i heard the sound of sumtin breaking. I thot something broke n fell off my handbag coz its got really heavy rounded metal fixtures. It was dark and with my horrible eyesight i cudnt really see so i basically grabbed whatever rounded object that was in sight. i found the battery for my car keys. and a cigarette butt. I stopped groping for things then and laughed at myself before walking in n pretending nothing happened. I have no idea who saw me coz really i could barely see 3 inches out let alone 3 feet. but whoever it was- if u see a lady falling pls extend a helping hand coz as embarrassed as u are to have been an unfortunate spectator, she is def more embarrassed times 100 ok. lookng away will not make her believe u didnt catch the entire show. sheesh. malaysian men.

Its been a rough past week for me. like everything that could go wrong-did. mom says its darah manis. a bride thing. But really! i have more then enough on my plate. I'd rather get thru the wedding without any blood sweetener ok.

2nd Jakarta trip

Good morning!!

Hows evryone been? Its been a crazy few days for me.. But the good news is my wedding stuff is almost settled... well not really but were getting there. Being bogged down with a mountain load of work always makes me feel like blogging. Procrastination is such a wonderful sin. So jakarta was dirty and crazy jammed. And my dress isnt ready. It will be shipped to me in the next couple of days/week. Im not angry that it isnt done eventho i went all d way. coz i love them too much. i love my designer, the store owner and all their staff!! they're the nicest most accomodating people ever!! AND they FED ME FOOD!! so that makes them one of my fav people in the world!! like if there was a big flood and i was the only one who has a big huge ship to save mankind, i would pick these people over u guys who have never fed me. So really, think about it ok. im free most weekends.

We did the fittings for my dresses and i swoooned!! I looked so pretty!!! i promise!! like people in the store who were shopping came over and were staring smiling and going oooohhhh and aaaaahhh and i was waving like a princess. yes. i waved. it was my 5 mins of fame. let me have it. mama made me stop tho. party pooper. but they're still fixing on the beads and finalising evrything. they are increadibly thorough. like there was not a single flyaway thread on my dress. not one. totally worth the price.

my cards were a different matter. i would have eaten the head of the man who was in charge if he didnt look so dirty. He is by all accounts THE MOST ANNOYING PERSON I HAVE EVER MET!! i was soooooo mad at him but everytime i looked at him i wanted to laugh!! i was really2 angry, but he looked so pathetic and idiotic. i promise. he wore a pair of really short shorts and a baby t. I swear, it was a baby t. It was red and had a face of a kitty on it with the words 'look me in the eye' printed on it. IN GLITTER!!! and the top was also 3 sizes too small for him. it was such a sight. after checking the cards he conveniently told me they forgot to print my thank you tags. and we were leaving the nxt day. Thank god for pak ijat, the driver we hired there. he truly is godsent. i got the last of my cards yesterday at the airport which as another huge drama that ended in me crying my eyeballs out while on the phone w mama, jj and La. 

All in all, i have to say the jkt trip this time was not as relaxed as i thought it would be. oh did i mention the tailor who did my dress on jj's side did not sew the dress. All i got was a bustier and a skirt. Thats all. And he got all upset that i didnt tell him i was coming. I had specifically told him and his wife we were coming last weekend. he forgot. and was going all angry at me. of course i dropped all little miss polite and went into hulk mode. U DO NOT MESS WITH A BRIDES DRESS. i asked him for the bustier and skirt n the rest of my material to be sent to another tailor. when he came back from getting them for his wife, he was all nice and diplomatic. his wife must have reminded him of the dates. cubit kang!! but all was well and i got them done in 3 days. 3 DAYS!!! can u believe it!??

So im now waiting on my akad nikah n reception tops. i already have the skirt and veil with me. and my custom made shoes. and altered bustier. i cant even berangan with baju's at home coz everything is incomplete. I cant wait to get em all!!

i have more to tell but its gonna have to wait. Due to yesterdays drama i have a mountain load of work to clear. Toodlooo!!

Tuesday rants

I will be getting my wedding dress in a couple of days and i so nervous! I hope and wish it turns out beautiful. Coz really mama and the designer did the entire frontal part. I only saw the back part of the dress on the ipad and wanted no other. I trust mama's taste completely but i just cant imagine what it looks like on the front...  and mama wasnt very happy with the back coz she was afraid it might look a bit too revealing. Sowe compromised with me giving her the frontal part to design, and opting for a thicker, less sheer material for the back part.

And dont even get me started on the cards!! We picked this particular shop coz :- A. They had airconditioning. It was mighty hot there and we basically ran from one aircond shop to another, ignoring the open aired ones. And B. This shop had three branches in the centre alone! so of course they had to be good right!?? Well I got a bit upset when i tried calling them from here to reconfirm that they got the changes i made and also to increase our order. My calls were rejected and my texts were left unanswered, as were my emails. I finally got thru when i called the landline and up till today, I still have not gotten the confirmation draft email she promised. So guys, if you go to indon to get your cards done. Avoid this shop called DutaGraphia. DO NOT be lured by the cool billowing aircond!!

Im still on the look out for wedding shoes.. I have already found one which i love! but im still waiting for some details to have it shipped so in the meantime, im shoeless still!!

Ive still got to tie up some loose ends here and there but i guess the major parts are more or less done. Butterflies in my tummy are growing by the day!!

Dear god, please make everything smooth and everybody happy and smiley on my wedding day. Id really appreciate it if you would make my skin glow too. Also, I would really love it if you would make my bank account grow again. Coz at the moment, its looking a little lean.. thats all for now. Thank you very much. 

12 Random facts about me

1. I hate long drives. I have a crazy phobia of accidents. I especially hate long drives at night. Riding on a bus on a long haul trip is as good as suicide.

2. I love anything sweet. but i cannot have sweet stuff for bfast- ie pancakes, cereal. I can have them if i have some other savoury items on the side.

3. Breakfast is my most favourite meal of the day. Dinner is a close second.

4. I cannot stand the cold. I go to the movies with blankets/shawl and a pair of ugly oversized comfy airline socks. Im just as embarrasing at the office.

5. I hid a couple of delicious caramel macarons in the fridge on saturday coz i was afraid my brothers would eat them. I am reminded of them everyday at work but always forget when i get home. Please dont forget today ok?

6. I can eat a huge bowl of cherries in a matter of minutes. Its like magic.

7. I have an obsession with nuts. Walnuts and pecans are absolute favs.

8. I am super nervous that my wedding dress and invites dont turn out the way i pictured them. I hope i dont throw a bitchfest...

9. My niece tells me she wants to marry me.. and my fiance.. she thinks once you have taken ur morning shower u can marry. She goes- mama na! na dah mandi!! jom kawen??

10. I hate it when make up artists put on mascara for me. I find it to be one of the most uncomfortable thing in the world. next to lip gloss. Which i also dislike.

11. I read the news with my legs folded up under me. and i normally wear sleep pants to go read so i can crash as soon i reach home n remove my mke up. nothing glamorous about that.

12. I am NOT as huge as i look on TV. All this hi def plasma lcd stuff is making me look all podgy n fat. Liars is what they are i tell u.

Shhhhhh.... lets make this our little secret okay

i know i told my dad there wouldnt be anymore wedding talk.. but i really wonder who has been telling him about my blog updates coz none of my siblings read my blog.. n he couldnt have read it himself.. i mean lets be realistic.. he bought a tablet computer and didnt know how to turn it on.. so whoevers been feeding him stories shut ur trap n go play in traffic ok? thank u.

it has been such a super duper packed awesomely tiring one week for us. JJ took a one week leave and came back to settle everything. our jakarta trip was a mix of sugar spice and dirty mucky icky black water (will get to that later). we managed to get the stuff we want and i cannot wait to see all end products.

i am so glad jj n i didnt argue once throughout the trip, or the entire week for that matter. we saw eye to eye on most things and those that we didnt, we compromised on. and im so thankful for that.

we also did out pre wedding photo and video shoot at kalumpang. it was fun to say the least. but also pretty draining. considering we had just returned from jkt on tuesday after midnight and spent the entire wednesday running errands and buying props for the shoot and marinaded the chicken n made spag bol n sandwiches for the shoot till late night. and left for the shoot at 7am the following day. i promise if my body cud speak, it'd have spanked and scolded me silly.

but im so happy that the photos turned out beautiful. we definitely bonded this week. after being apart for so long it felt nice to have him around all the time. well for a week at least...

enjoy the photos!

post lunch

Papa im-ed me yesterday, yes he instant msged me. my dad who knows as much about computers as i do about math. He's hooked on ym. Everynow and then i get text and emails that goes- u whr? wan chat now. It takes him a while to reply tho, i imagine him tip tapping the keypad, looking for alphabets and laughing at himself when he realises it was under his nose all the while.

he told me to stop blogging abt the wedding. bummer. i kindda wanted to keep it as a journal for me to read back later on... bt papa's kno best. so no more wedding drama's!

im feeling dpressed of late.. with jj not around... n having to miss the valiram luxury shoe sale this weekend.. sigh... not that i trust myself enough to go JUST for a looksee.. for all you other lucky people out there.. please go and show me pictures so i can drool ok

Spooky nites...

For the past 2 years i have been waking up in the middle of the night. This happens everynight no matter where i am, be it at home, a hotel or my grandma's place back in my hometown. And i always always always wake up at 2.58, 2.59 or 3am. i googled this and got some rather disturbing answers. While some sites mentioned something about sleep patterns and internal clocks, a lot of them say that 3am is the time when paranormal activity is at its peak. Reading about the witching hour and the hour of the walking dead isnt really making me feel all that better. But i do get creeped out when i wake up, even if the tv is on, which is most nites (fine everynite). I get the feeling that im being watched.

Last night i had a nightmare, that i was sleeping and woke up at 2.59am and felt like there was a presence in my bedroom. I ran out and saw my dad standing outside my door. he looked pale and told me that he saw a pontianak (banshee) flying into my room. At that exact moment i woke up, and it was 2.59am- creepy much!??!?

On a totally unrelated note, the wedding frenzy is starting to get to me. Were in d midst of looking for a ring for him and omg stress pls. Were looking for a broad ring coz he has giant fingers, in a material that abides by islamic laws, and my moms laws, and is within my budget. u kno how hard that is??? It doesnt help that he's so far away, but i guess we have to make do. 4 months one week and one day to go. Lets pray we all come thru in one piece. Frazzled and fried im sure... but intact :)

Baby baby mama

Last friday, about 20 ibm-ers made our way to a home for troubled teen girls in cheras, an area i have little familiarity of. we have had looooooooong meetings prior to coming here to prep ourselves for what we would encounter. despite those extended 3 hour long meetings, i was rendered speechless when faced with the girls.

Taman Seri Puteri Cheras is a place that houses girls from the ages of 12-18. These 'misled' girls live a protected life here. they are not allowed to go out, or leave without parental consent or until they reach a certain age. Most of them are also pregnant. I am not accustomed to seeing kids as young as 13 years old hobbling around with huge tummy's. When i was 13, i was still playing hopscotch and making faces when asked to take out the garbage.

We were ushered into a meeting room upon arrival and were told to set up while they rounded the girls. After 15 minutes, the girls walked in, all 35 of them, while we were setting up our power point slides and que cards and such. All of us either stared at the floor or at each other, each one trying not to look, much less stare at these girls who are obviously very very young, but pregnant nonetheless.

We were very careful in our speech, afraid of saying something that might offend the girls, but they proved to be rather, outspoken. After the initial stage of getting to know one another, they and us were finally at ease and were able to have private conversations. Over morning tea, i found out that 17 year old Salwa are carrying a pair of boy girls twins and that her mother told her not to come home after she delivers for fear of her safety as her father is an abusive man. And 15 year old Wai Leng is due in three days time.

The girls we dressed differently according to the state they were in. Pregnant girls wore a blue robe with white tudung, while non-pregnant girls wore flower print baju kurung. We later found out that the non-pregnant girls have either just given birth, or are under remand by the police.

While we were there, we saw a young girl being taken away by her parents. Her feet were clad in thick socks and she was dressed in layers to keep herself warm- a sign she was in confinement. We later found out that she had given birth 3 days earlier and she had given her baby up for adoption. A couple had come to take her baby home, and she would be going back to her parents. She is 13 years old. When she was 12, she was raped. Her parents sent her to Seri Puteri when she got pregnant. She cried as she left and i wondered if it was from sadness of having to see your child leave with someone else, never to be seen again, or bitterness from the trauma she has been through. It was gut wrenching.

We were told not to ask these girls any personal questions that might offend them, but in the end, it was them who were openly telling us their life stories. While some were girls who mixed with the wrong crowd and got into trouble, there were some who were raped by people they knew, relatives, friends, boyfriends.

One thing that stuck in my mind was when we played an adventure game. You have to choose the decision you want to make based on the choices given according to the situation portrayed. It went something like this-

Shiela is 17. She comes from a poor family. Her father is in jail. She has never visited him as she is ashamed of him. Her mother has to work hard to support her and her siblings. One day, an old women comes up to her and hands her a magic watch. She told shiela that this watch can take her anywhere she wants to in a matter of seconds when she says out loud where she wants to go while wearing it. Shiela wears the watch and says-

A- Take me to a nightclub

B- Take me to my fathers jail cell

C- Take me to Phuket, Thailand

We were all caught off guard when ALL the girls shouted A! like it was the most natural thing in the world. someone gives u a magic watch?? lets go to the nightclub!! this coming from teens who are supposed to be crying over a huge zit or like me- not being allowed to go on school trips.

I really hope and pray these girls find their way in the world. I truly wish for them to learn from this mistake and be better people. It was a real eye opener for all of us. i pray these girls will make it out in the real world free from judgements and pain.

Prince Charming

growing up. most girls i know had an extensive list of 'criteria's' they wanted in a man they were to marry. which girl has not had numerous discussions with their girlfriends about how they want their guy to be

1. Rich- mandatory criteria this one

2. Handsome- another major point here

3. Must be a prince and/or an actor and/or an heir to a major company, hotel, business or all that i have mentioned.

4. Romantic

5. MUST be a gentleman

6. Generous and caring- by generous i mean buying me gifts every other day, or everyday im not picky

Thats all i can pull so far off the top of my head. But the problem with setting criteria's are that we set the bar so high up, most of us will never meet anybody who meets all that. Sure we'll meet that guy who is as romantic as Heidi Klum's husband Seal and good looking to boot but of course he's a casanova so be prepared to share him with a slew of girls.

The gentleman who opens doors for us and pulls out our chairs are unfortunately shorter then us. And princes, heirs and actors never even look our way.

As for the shower of gifts. I guess practicality applies. Unless ur marrying the list of people with titles above, i doubt you'd be showered with gifts on a daily basis eyh? JJ called me from adelaide 2 weeks back all excited! he was telling me that he got me sumtin. my ears perked up like a kangaroo imagining handbags or well... a pot. thr's this pot which i was eyeing but even at the outlet store its like 1500 MYR. his voice was all cute and excited and he went-

"i bought u... plastic bags!!!"

"you can marinade chicken in it and bake it IN THE BAG!! like throw it in the oven along with the bag!!

"how awesome is that!!"

*crickets chirping*

i laughed my a** off!! here i was imagining designer handbags and expensive le crueset pots and he was so excited in an almost childish way about this plastic bag it was soooo cute!!!

he's arriving tonight for a short break and i cannot wait to see him!! i cant pick him up at the airport unfortunately coz im reading tonite. so i'll see him tomorrow and i will def bake him that chicken in the bag.

he is most def not the romantic kind either but he surprises me sumtimes. and i prefer this arrangement to the romantic all the time kind of guy who can be rather suffocating at times if u ask me. with him, since its so scarce, it becomes really meaningful.

i guess the man im marrying does not meet my childhood list of criteria but i believe in this phrase i once heard.

when two people are crazy in love, they dont sweat the small stuff

baby over the rainbow

I am in love with this little girl!!!