Guess What!?!?

Over the past month i have been having sharp pains in my lower abdomen. It got really bad a couple of times but i always put it down to my menses coming. It wasnt until last week that i decided that the pain was getting to be too much to bear, and made an appointment with my gynea. Both hubster and i were convinced it was again the annoying ovarian cyst that ive had removed twice.

After the normal questions by the nurse about my menses cycle and what hurts where and when, she asked when was my last period. After some calculating, she said i was 8 days late and demanded i pee on a stick. I have to say, the thought of pregnancy had crossed my mind numerous times, but after being let down a couple of times- i was afraid to even hope for it. ok fine... every month when my period comes i cry! hubster will make a harmless comment about something and the waterworks will start..

So after i did the test i didnt get to see it coz the nurse scuttled over to the doctors ofc whr we were called upon. When we got in- the doctor said, i may have some good news for you... but i just want to be sure.. do u mind lying down for a bit. at this point i was again- almost crying. Seriously la- im so emotional nowadays its scary!

He poked and prodded the ultrasound thingy and proclaimed- Yes yes! you are definitely pregnant!!. At this point i was grinning like a monkey and looked over to hubster who had a similar chimp like look on his bobbing head. SO SO HAPPY!!! Alhamdulillah :)

So as per today. I am 5 weeks pregnant. My baby is about the size of a pea and i dont do housework anymore. Also- yesterday's visit to the gynea confirmed that my pregnancy is gonna be a painful one. Apparently, due to the numerous surgeries that ive had- my intestine and uterus are now stuck together. So as my baby grows, my intestine will stretch along with it. That explains the pain ive been feeling for many many years now..

But as for now- both hubster and i are ecstatic!! I do feel nauseous now and again but there has not been any vomiting so far. Hopefully there will be none coz i hate puking. Here's to a peaceful pain- free pregnancy!! insyaAllah :)

Cry Baby

From the moment i knew for sure i was getting married, attending solemnization ceremonies and watching wedding video's made me cry. Be it strangers' weddings , or that of close friends and relatives. I put it down to hormones and the stress of planning a wedding. But ive been watching a couple of wedding videos of late- and ive been bawling like a baby at the office its embarrassing!

what surprised me even more was when my collegue called me over to her desk to watch the 'flash mob' at KLIA- the one thats all over fb now- we were both fawning over the video till the end bit when the cabin crews came out then evryone did the dance togather. Thru flooded eyeballs I went- I dont know why but i feel like crying watching this. Without skipping a beat she went- i pooonnnnnn!! and immediately passed me a tissue as we both wept.

Hello- ape yg sedih kot!!?? I just feel so touched looking at them all dancing in sync with one another. Its not often you see msian uniting but this is one of the few occasion that brings togather msians of all races, age groups and social status. So touching laaa!!

If uv been living under a discarded coconut shell and have not seen it- pls click here and do. And tell me- did u feel like crying too??

Flatpacks and flapjacks

So were in the midst of moving into our new place. ETA of moving day would be this weekend then its good bye kajang n hello civilization!! I was horrified when jj first suggested we stay in kjg for a bit while our house gets done- coz hello?? kajang is so far!! u practically need a passport to come! n they dont have ou... or the curve... nor do they have ikea... all they have is alamada! eeek!! that fact alone has put me off going on movie date nights- something we used to do on a weekely basis back in damansara.

But truth be told.. after staying here for 2 months plus... the place has kindda grown on me.. living here is kindda like going back in time.. where the people actually stop to make way for u when ur both stuck on a narrow lane... n old ladies smile back at u instead of just looking away.. oh well... i hope our new place will be good to us too..

We still need to get a media set for the tv- or as ikea puts it, pusat hiburan. and the odd lamp or two. and 2 nightstands. n a cream carpet..

And lastnight- after dinner i came home and made myself a choc chip pancake topped with whipped cream. coz hubster ate all of my ice cream. thats the 2nd tub i never got to eat. Im considering buying one of those fridges with the lock thingy- do they still make those!??

Last weekend we cleaned the house with my in laws n im starting to think my house is humongous!!- judging by the aches and pains i got from mopping n sweeping so much surface! or maybe im just lazy... whatevs..

I think of this as an investment- coz 20 years later- heyyy!! lookie here! its still on my thigh! n growing stronggg!!

See those gleaming floors??? does ur eyes hurt looking at them?? coz my arms still does!

Thats my kitchen door. I super love it coz its pretty AND it swings both ways!!

Day 15: Fave Song EVER

i decided to skip #14 coz im just too freakin lazy to look thru my files for a decent pic of me last year. If im not mistaken- i was mighty fat plump this time around a year ago so id really rather not relive that painfull memory thank you very much! So my favouritest songs ever are as listed below.

1. My Destiny by Jim Brickman- I love it so much i used it as my wedding song!

2. Forever and For Always- Shania Twain

3. Wally- Aslyn

4. Brown Girl in the Rain- Boney M- I used to sing this w my mom wen i was a kid (ok fine until now). Sabrina crazy loves it too! n so does hubster, even tho he cannot for the life of him carry a tune.

5. LOVE- Nat King Cole- I used this in my wedding video but its actually a song my brothers and i share. We'd put it on real loud in the car and sing our lungs out. rindu nye!!

6. Time to say goodbye- Tho i dont understand 3/4 of what she is saying, i think her singing is simply beautiful!

7. Tell him- Celine Dion & Barbra Streisand- Listening to these two sing gives me the goosebumps!

8. Smile- Judy Garland

9. Jann Arden- You dont know me

10. All songs from the sound of music!!

Krabi Story

Ok i need a break from the 30 day blogging thingy. ok fine im just lazy to go scouring for a photo of me from this time last year. We came back from krabi 2 days back and im so wishing im back thrrrr!!! Its not so much that the place was amazing or anything- but not doing anything work related for 5 days was beyond awesome!!

Beautiful!

Phi phi was breath taking as expected. We took a day tour and was thrown into a speedboat full of european tourists and 2 indian couples with their 3 kids. The europeans were largely friendly and accomodating- but the indian family were far from pleasant. They didnt listen when the boat man was speaking, and as a result- kept us all waiting when the didnt turn up at the boat at the pre agreed time. I was pretty happy when the boat man told them off for being late :p- coz really they were so super annoying! a german guy seated next to me was giving me the nudge and pointing at them- nk ajak mengumpat boleyy??

Bamboo Island

I love the turquoise colour of the ocean

We went to a few islands but i gotta say, krabi looks pretty much like pulau redang underwater. They do have more pristine beaches, but the aquatic life looks very familiar indeed. Nonetheless, i had a lot of fun frolicking about. I love feeding the fishes with bread- we brought some from the hotel as did some other guests. However, i dont like having the fishes crowd around me. geli la. so i kept throwing the bread far away at other swimmers and was having a gleeful time watching them shriek and panic- till i realize thr was an awful lot of fishes around me! i splashed my limbs about bt they werent budging. then i realised why!! there was a mother daughter team on board the boat who were happily tossing bread at me while i was happily tossing bread at another couple. ok fine- karma brought me loads of fishies. haha!


The next day we went white water rafting!- era i love it too!! but there were soooooo byk other boats around that it felt like bumper boats. It was fun tho. People kept splashing water at me with their paddles and one guy even poured water down my back using his helmet coz i couldnt for the life of me work the paddle to splash back at people. All i could do was shout- "splash him yang!! the one in yellow!! ya and that one!! n yg tu!!". Useful boat mate i was...We were paired up with another couple from the UK. We were given instructions on how to paddle and i was all serious and ready to rock- till we reached a particularly frothy part of the river. I threw my paddle into the boat and hung on for dear life and from that point on- for the next 4.5 kms, all i did was hang on to the strap thingy and screamed- as did the other girl on our boat. we were basically dead weights la. But scary ok!

Barbie's ride

Two pink heads are better then one

Joy ride

Then we rented a scooter and went riding around the entire day. I went in to the scooter rent place and heard jj requesting for a pink scooter for me complete with matching pink helmets :) sweetumsss!!!I tried my hand at riding it myself- but hubster gave me all of 5 seconds of 'sorta-trying-to-accelerate' before he went- "xpayah la. no no. Ur def gonna fall n hurt urself. confirm!!". hurmph- so much confidence he has in me.

My angry bird giving jeep the eye

Painting in the park

We took a nice slow drive and stopped at a park where we sat down on little tables and mats and painted plaster of paris figurines. I painted a pink angry bird tabung for sabrina while he painted a tiny jeep. It goes without saying that mine look better.

Crabs drowned in butter and garlic

The BEST lemon steamed fish!

RM13 salt baked fish! delish!!

It was a wonderful trip! I We ate and ate n ate. Everyday i would eat this banana chocolate pancake thingy- its sooooooooooooooo good!! its basically our roti canai stuffed with bananas, stretched real thin and pan fried till uber crsipy and generously drizzeled with condensed milk and chocolate sauce. Theres another version which slathers nutella on the hot pancake. Heart attack on a plate?? i think so! well at least ill die happy.

All in all we came back darker, fatter, but def happier!! our next trip is to kota kinabalu in July but im planning to squeeze redang somewhr before kk. were also goin to jb at the end of the month to watch my bestest friend finally get engaged! then we have penang the week after. So many trips plus moving house next weekend. looks to be a pretty tiring few weeks to me! i hope evrything turns out good! oh and i may be a little late but- HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS!!

Day 13: Goals

My main goal right now is to start a family. 1 kid, 2 kids or 6- i dont mind!

But my long term goal or rather dream is to open up a small family run cafe which offers home cooked food in which a menu isnt set. daily offerings would be- whatever janna feels like eating cooking. I would be a plus if its by the beach- under a HUGE tree to shade it and me from the sun. Or up in the cooler climates of the mountains. I imagine a relaxed setting- think recycled wood, white linen, kitschy art that one of my 6 kids made, flowers on the table- always flowers on the table, crayons (maybe i should rethink while linens) and brightly coloured plates.

Either this- or a kindergarted. I LOVE working with kids!! but its quite a responsibility to care for so many kids. Esp now w horror stories we hear of crazed machete- weilding men coming into tadika's and attacking children. *shudders*

Day 12: Something you don’t leave the house without.

I NEVER leave home without- my lipbalm. If i forget to bring it, i simply pop into the nearest pharmacy and buy one! I have one in my ofc drawer, one on my dresser, 2 in my handbag, another one on my dresser at my parents, and another on the nightstand, and yesterday i found one in the glove compartment of my car, and another under my pillow.

The only brand that works for me is neutrogena. Ive tried em all! from the ever delicious smelling body shop, to the pink lips promises of lip ice, and the super expensive sisley- they all made my lips chap and crack. Ive been using neutrogena for the past 6 years and i love it still!

Day 11: Favorite TV shows

These are without a doubt my most favourite tv shows ever! Gimme a whole lotta snacks and plop me in front of the tv with lotsa fat pillows and ill be one happy girl!

Day 10: Something you’re afraid of

Its not secret among my close family and friends that i am DEATHLY afraid of roaches. Refer to this post for a clearer picture. I will bring much embarrasment to all those around me should a situation that involves roaches arise. But please dont be too quick to judge me. A number of incidents has happened in my life that has furthur strengthen my fear of this highly disgusting and awfully despicable creature.


1. We once went to uptown (a place notoriously known for its high density of roaches) and sat next to a pleasant looking old couple who were happily enjoying their dinner. The husband was sans hair, and the wife had too much of it- think alleycats' arumugam. Halfway thru my dinner, i saw the wife abruptly stand up and was running her fingers thru her hair like she was looking for the lost Mayan gold in it. The anti roach lunatic in me told me to run, fast. And i did. I ran far away (like a psycho killer was coming after me) leaving my husband (then boyfriend) looking bewildered and wondering what the heck was the matter with me.


My instincts proved right. A giant roach had in fact gotten lost in the sea of hair and had seemed to dissipate in it. Needless to say- that was the end of our dinner. I stood 10 feet away from the hair lady and refused to come any closer, much less finish my dinner. We left 2 seconds later. Me- from utter fear. My husband- from sheer embarrassment of me.


2. Another time i was with my family- again at uptown (i dont know why i keep going back!).The whole family were enjoying dinner when I noticed the kids at the next table staring at sumthing under our table. Being paranoid i practically shouted out - Whattt!!!??? They mumbled something and i asked again- whattt?? what what whatttt?!?!! (at this point i had thrown my handbag and was ready to sprint) the girl pointed to sumtin under the table and went (i will nvr forget the tone of fear in her voice) "ada bug...." by now both mama and i had jumped up from our seat and were jumping around like monkeys trying to get the 'bug' off us. After 3 mins of this we realised the bug wasnt on us. They were still staring under our table so we asked- mana??? she went. "dekat leg diaaaaa!!" pointing to my embarrased dad's leg. He actually continued eating while the 'bug' walked up n down his leg coz he was so malu of the commotion mama and i made. hello. lipas tu big ok. gross!!


So u see folks. All the incidents i mentioned (ok there is SOOOOOOOO more then 2!- i forget) have morphed my fear of roaches. I hope when we move into our new house next month, we wont have any untoward incidents involving them. *prays super hard*

* I thought of putting up a pic of a roach here but decided otherwise. My blog might die of fear if i did.

Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friends

I've been searching hi and low in fb and in my files here for a pic i like of my bestfriends. But i couldnt find any that i absolutely love! so im just gonna put up some pics of them so u know who they are ok!

Super love them!! facial hair, fat lips and all!!!

Day 8: A place you’ve travelled to.

I have always loved travelling. Be it to far flung places, or just a trip back to my kampung. I didnt mind the long journeys, I even loved it back then- the long drives and long haul flights. Till our roads got so accident prone, and I got old enough to realise that long flights dries my skin out, makes my hair go flat, and sleeping on na airplane seat for 15 hours leaves me feeling like a 90 year old.


Despite all these- I still liked travelling. Last weekend hubster and I took a drive to Penang. We agreed that the drive was tiring. But we both enjoyed the trip tremendously. We ate so much nasi kandar- and still craved more the moment we were back in KL- gluttons we are

From all my travels, I have concluded that my most favourite place in the whole wide world- outside Malaysia is London and Cape town. I love London because it reminds me of family, friends and shopping. It gives me a sense of peace. I go for walks in the park every morning that im there at 730 sharp. I bring a bag of nuts with me and feed the squirels. I went there so often, the policemen who patrol the park remembers me and would cheerfuly greet me every morning.

Cape Town is just beautiful. Despite the horrific crime rate, I fell in love with the beautiful landscape and gorgeous coastlines. I really wish it could be a safer place. Contrary to popular belief that all of Africa is a hot desert- it actually is cold in South Africa in the last few months of the year, and its pretty cool there the rest of the year. And it really is a beautiful place. Not so much shopping to be done- but def worth going.

Day 7: Favorite movies.

Id like to say that my fav movies are something deep or meaningful- or are great classics... but im a chic flick lover thru and thru so... These are my all time favourite movies!!

Absolute favs!!- n yes i do have a thing for Julia Roberts! i loved her in Steel Magnolia and Pretty Women too!

ps: system is down at work today. So im making up for future 30 day blog procrastinations

Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy.

At this point in time. I can think of two things that would make a very very verrrrry happy girl.

2 weeks and 2 days to go!!!

Day 5: A song to match your mood

I dont celebrate christmas, but the end of year always leaves me feeling jolly and christmas-sy. I love London  in December. The xmas feel there is just so... festive and it really gets u in the mood- despite me not celebrating it. You cannot help but be sucked into the happy cheery twinkly happiness.I loved walking around town alone, looking at the beautiful decorations, eating warm soft cookies and choc covered waffles speckled with fresh snow.


I once met a santa claus in front of Selfridges who, instead of wishing me a marry christmas- said Assalamualikum when he found out i was from Malaysia. Turned out santa hailed from Turkey- How cute kan!

I recently bought Michael Buble's xmas album. His voice is like warm smooth chocolate- like the ones flowing from a fondue machine. I swear it does good stuff for the soul. If i were rich, id make him sing me to sleep everynight!

So because its december, the song that matches my mood would be-

Day 4: My parents

I actually turned on my laptop twice to write about my parents. But nothing i penned down seemed appropriate to portray the enormous respect and deep love i have for them both. So ill leave you with bits and pieces of my life to make u better understand the amazing people they are-

When i was little, my dad would pick me n my sister up and hoist us to standing position on his shoulders in the swimming pool, and throw us into the water. The last time he did this was when i was 14. He went to Tokyo shortly after- and came home in a wheel chair. *guilty*

My mom understands me better then anybody in the world. When i got into an accident (minor one- This bozo hit me on the side.) I coolly called my parents and was all composed and confident talking to them on the phone. My mom obviously panicked when she heard the word accident. When they arrived at the scene, cool composed me broke down n cried like a baby at the sight of mom who obviously also cried. Padahal the car was just slightly dented on the side n i wasnt hurt at all!!

Up till when i was in highschool, whenever we travelled overseas, papa would make me put my hands in his jacket pocket n made sure I never let go. he was afraid he might loose me in the crowd. My last trip with him, we went to south africa and argentina- i was 23, he held on to my backpack the entire time we were there. When we went to the supermarket, he wouldnt even let me be in the next isle alone. I felt like i was 3 years old again- till i heard that a huge burly steward was mugged at gunpoint and a friend of my dad's (a SA national) told us how her son was shot at random and had died.

Sometimes i feel my mom and i speak a different language that only we understand. Wen we talk- most people dont just dont get it- my dad included. We're laughing most of the time anyways. And countless times- We have been mistaken as sisters. Which kind of irks me really. And i think she looks real young- This is much easier then admitting that i look old :p

When i studied in Arau, my dad made sure i had a open ticket so i could come back anytime i wanted to- this does not include the bi weekly ticket i already had.

On the night after my reception on my husband's side- My mom called me and we both cried buckets. Reality had finally set in that i have moved out of the house i grew up in. My husband found me lying in bed crying my eyeballs out n he just held me while i cried. While my mom- who was actually at a friends house, ran to the toilet and stayed in there for a good 20 mins and came out with a nose that would have put rudolph to shame.

When my life fell apart, they were there to pick up the pieces and fight the battle for me, not alongside me, but for me. They protected me as much as they could and and cushioned the rest- and for that i am eternally grateful.

There really are a thousand more stories i can tell u why my parents are awesome. But at the end of the day it doesnt matter. Coz mere words do not do justice to the great love and respect i have for them.

My rocks

Day 3- My 1st love

Hmmm... my 1st love or rather 1st crush if i remember correctly was a fellow classmate- in kindergarten. Yes i started pretty early. I cannot for the life of me remember what he looked like but i know he was huge- not in a fat kindda way, more like in a buff gym goin sorta way. He was 5 bt im pretty sure he worked out. N he spoke flawless english. I think that was what attracted me to him in the 1st place. Since a young age, i loved to hear ppl speak english.

When i was 6, we went to brisbane and met this 6 y/o twin girls on a river cruise- they were australian of course. We became friends and played games and at one point i ran to my dad n whispered- "paaa!! dorg terror sgt ckp englishhh!!". ahh to be young and innocent again :)

3 days n going strongggg!!

Ill be in penang tomorrow till sunday so day 4 will resume on monday!

Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name

This blog was initialy a product of grief and the need to be invisible. My previous blog had been violated and my words were taken and twisted in ways that made me afraid to write at a place where my name would be linked- hence the birth of this blog.


And then there was me- at that time meant that there was something more then the stupid political hype, I was more then the names mentioned in passing, the one people pitied, and cursed at. After all the blood sweat and tears- there was me. Just me.


The me that people would see if they would only open their eyes and look at with naked eyes. Not from blogs, nor newspapers, or the news.


But as the saying goes- after the storm comes the rainbow. And the rainbow indeed is here. Im so grateful that my life has turned out the way it has. Im def in a much better place now and i believe the downfall that i had, has made me a better person.


So there you have it- The meaning behind my blog name.
Cheers!

Day 1- Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts.

Ok this picture isnt really thaaaaat recent- but its d best i can do. The pencurik took off with both my camera's mann!!

1. When shopping (groceries, toiletteries, clothes- and the likes) i will feel the sudden unavoidable urge to do a number 2 (always!).

2. I cook with one hand on my hips.

3. I sometimes drive with my legs crossed.

4. My feet are always freezing cold!

5. I always make sure i empty my bladder 15 minutes before reading the news coz the studio is super duper freezing cold!!- n freezing temperatures always makes me wanna do a number 1

6. I have always dreamed of having a yellow kitchen. But the house we bought comes with a white tiled one.

7. At any given time, I have at least 6 pairs of shoes in my car.- 9 if u count my niece's

8. When i get nervous, my teeth goes all tingly.

9. I dont cry easily- and when i do, it gives me a migrain.

10. I get bored doing facials.

11. I hate mani pedi's.

12. The thief who broke into our house ate my orange.

13. He also pooped in the backyard.

14. I secretly hope the TV he stole will electrocute him.

15. Im surprisingly not mad that he took our 3 thousand ringgit camera

The Challenge

I got this off another blogger and thot it might be an interesting challenge- both in coming up with ideas to write, and in trying to blog discreetly under the watchful eye of my manager- whom im seated next to.

So for the next 30 days I will be blogging according to the list below. Hopefully on a day to day basis. Otherwise- a few days of delay never killed anyone

Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts.



Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name.


Day 3: Your first love.


Day 4: Your parents.


Day 5: A song to match your mood.


Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy.


Day 7: Favorite movies.


Day 8: A place you’ve travelled to.


Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friend.


Day 10: Something you’re afraid of.


Day 11: Favorite TV shows.


Day 12: Something you don’t leave the house without.


Day 13: Goals.


Day 14: A picture of you last year – how have you changed?


Day 15: Fave Song EVER


Day 16: Dream house.


Day 17: Something you’re looking forward to.


Day 18: Favorite place to eat.


Day 19: Something you miss.


Day 20: Nicknames.


Day 21: Favorite picture of yourself ALL TIME and why?


Day 22: What’s in your purse?


Day 23: Your idea of a perfect first date.


Day 24: Something you’ve learned.


Day 25: Something you crave a lot.


Day 26: Your dream wedding.


Day 27: Original photo of the city you live in.


Day 28: Something that stresses you out.


Day 29: 3 wishes.


Day 30: A picture of yourself this day and 3 good things that happened since you started the challenge.

Short getaway and Edward i love u

I have been meaning to post up some pictures of us from - well from various places and times but i keep forgetting to have them transferred from the camera. Last i checked, there are pics in thr from up to 7 months ago. Oh well, itll have to wait.


We watched Twilight Breaking Dawn the other day. I was pretty insistent on watching it coz Edward is just toooo hot to miss like seriously. And i was not wrong! OMGGG!! he looked sooooooo hot smilling and laughing like that- at times i actually forgot hubster was seated like 2 inches away from me. It felt like it was just me and him (him being Edward of course!). n wen bella got sick she looked all old n ugly- my insides were going all heyy Edward lookie me!! all healthy and fleshy!! pick me pick me pick me!! of course he didnt... bt that didnt stop me from grinning from ear to ear like an idiot anyway. MUST WATCH ladies! must watch!

We took a short trip to cameron highland a couple of weeks back. It was his birthday and i was outta off days- so we took a short 3 day 2 nite getaway and im glad we did. Cameron's was as pretty as ive always remembered it. We (my family) go to penang and cameron highlands every year during the hols. Mostly because its about the only place worth going in the chain of hotels/ apartment in my dad's time sharing package. But also because we just love it up there. Penang is a food haven. But cameron is jut so... relaxing and quiet. 

We went hiking up there! Ive been up cameron highlands thousands of time but i never even thot of goin hiking up thr! bt we did!- he didnt bring his sports shoes but d tour agency provided them so yeay!! if u ever go up there- make sure u dont miss goin hiking in the mossy forest! its beautiful!! ok im leaving for home in a couple of minutes so enjoy the photos!